deedolly6T9

Deezers &Theo
2002-07-19 17:28:08 (UTC)

don't kno...

i don't kno anything anymore...i tend to screw up the BEST
things in life...here i am...um...best friendless... and in
pain...but i can't let it show...


gotta be strong and push myself through this....


soooooo many times i thought that i wouldn't be able to
take it anymore...that i should kill myslef...that's soooo
gay!! most of it was b/c of guys...or fights i ahd w/ rents
or w/e...and i thought i had the ULTIMATE pain
then...well..um..i was wrong...like usual...

i cna't show passion, or love. i ahve my own little ways
and there nothing like everyone elses...i guess no one
would really kno how much i loved them.i can't be deep. i
always ahve to hold it inside. and everytme i do it screws
me over. No one...& i do mean NO ONE!will ever kno how i
feel.

i'm afraid of love. afraid to trust, everytime i do, i only
get broken.




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