sweetaddiction

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2001-07-02 17:14:55 (UTC)

you looked at me with your..

you looked at me with your sadistic eyes.
and lost me with your beautiful lies.
the sun always shines too bright.
and you and i never had to fight.
we knew.
we just knew.
im happier when i dont think.
because thinking brings pain.
thinking of you, anyway.
you never had a reason to go.
but you did, and i will never know.
why.
how am i supposed to move on.
when every where go.
i went with you.
your memories dont make me smile.
they bring me pain.
if you were going to leave.
why couldnt you take ALL of you away
why didnt you take my memories.
your cards
pictures.
letters.
that beautiful ring.
your mother cried when i walked out.
she hugged me and told me.
not to leave.
but how could i possibly have stayed
knowing that you.
you of all people baby.
lied to me.
i guess i just thought i meant more to you than this.
i thought you and i.
could have made it.
and now...
now.
the later on. in this story.
ive come across something much more beautiful than you.
would ever have been.
and im having problems letting go.
but now.
i remember.
asking you whether there was hope.
whether or not i should wait.
and you said no.
tragedy stuck my life.
and you wouldnt even talk to me.
i needed you.
as a person.
not a girlfriend.
and you were NOT there.
what was the deciding factor in your choice.
why is one day different from another.
and why if youre so much better now.
do you still refuse to talk to me.
aknowledge me.
i am not that bad of a person.
actually. youre probably one of the only people i wasnt a bitch to.
and yet, i get that in return.
but now i am happy.
and im sure youd hate to know.




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