BLAH BLAH BLAH
whatever thats how i feel now... i dont know what to think
and do.. i never knew being in a relationship would be so..
so.. well basically like a roller coaster ride and you know
what im sick of it. i love him with all my heart but u know
what i so sick of being happy then mad happy then mad. it
just is pissing me off. either one or the other. can u
believe he told jose that he wants me to always go to him..
sorry! i dont work like that its either 50 50 or the guy
always does a little more. i really dont know now. im being
so faithfull to him and i want to and im happy i can be but
he thinks i cant. he doesnt trust me! what kind of
relationship is that where the guy doesnt trust the girl.
well i really dont know what is going on or whats going to
happen. when i call him today cuz i know he isent going to
page me or call me the reason why i call him is that i love
him dearly and i cant go a day without hearing him talk.but
anyways today i was at jones beach (nyc) im soo tan. i had
fun i cant believe i was staring at the place where nsync
performed!! lol but i was at the pool and laying at the
beach..i did alot of
thinking..writing..resting..tanning..and listened to music.
but anyways im gonna go. lol this is what i keep telling
myself BE STRONG YOU CAN DO IT..YOU CAN MAKE IT! ahh 20
days until the pagent im soooo scared.. hey iand its on my
aniversary i bet he is gonna be pissed i cant be with him
on it cuz i have to go to jersey and be in that pagent.
well im outy cya~