daydream disbeliever

Mad Ramblings From a Blithering Idiot
2002-07-17 23:55:25 (UTC)

I Didn't Mean to Bring You Down

I miss Josh terribly. Saw him last night while I was
playing euchre with N2, Jrud, and AF Bobby (who I wasn't
too impressed with, by the way). He came home drunk and
was quite friendly to me-asking me about my apartment and
exactly where it was (he'd seen my car parked out front-no
doubt on the way to Metessa's). I was perfectly sweet to
him. I could never be mean to him no matter how hard I
could try.

I had to give AF Bobby a ride back to town. I thought
of Josh the whole way home. I'm glad Bobby talked
nonstop. N told me today at work that she lectured Josh
for a long time after I left last night. She does it a
lot, she's told me. I hope her nagging will make him ask
me out again. What will I say?

I don't know. I love him (I think) but I only want someone
that wants only ME, and is not in love with the idea of
love. More detail later. Too much chaos is occurrring in
my living room.