Sad Girl

Nobody Gets It
2002-07-17 20:29:26 (UTC)

Do You Know How It Feels?

Today is the first entry in my new diary...i finally got
comp access back so here i am anyways though so yeah the
last time i wrote in my diary was like in march i
think...thats really besides the point though i guess well
since then my so called "husband to be" or whatever and i
have grown apart he disappeared to mexico with his ex and i
found out about it now that he's back he thinks its all
gravy and it aint because im now five and a half months
pregnant with his baby and he doesn't even care...oh well i
have now reached the emotional stability in my life and i
am okay with doing this on my own besides i dont think he
really has any right to be part of this now anyways since
he was neever there from the beginning even before i got
pregnant i just felt like it was the crew politics of high
school that meant we should be together now i see that i
was WRONG AGAIN...well i am currently finishing summer
school :::yuck::: yeah i hate it and hate almost everyone
in my class too...there's a few cool people but not people
i plan on talking to next year ya understand andyways so i
finally told my dad i was pregannt and it turned out better
than i thought...he wasnt upset he was more worried about
me and my healthm ore than anything which to my surprised
shocked me pretty damn much sicne he usually looks down on
everything i do...my sister now lives here and so mom and i
andn ita are all together the trio returns...things have
been great because im not so lonely and depressed like i
was before since i had no one to talk to really and if any
of you read my other entries on my old diary you'll know
how upset i was that i felt like my sister was too good for
me now when she lived in cali since she had no time to talk
to me but now that shes backwe spend so much time
together...the fact that we both have like no friends out
here and that im pregnant has alot to do with it though but
i dontmind as long as we canget close again like
before...mom and me are great i just wishmy sister would
help me and her out a little more because mom is gettin old
and im getting more pregnant by the hour i swear so its not
easy for us to do as much anymore...speaking of being more
pregnant we felt the baby kick for the first time last
night and boy did it kick hard...we think its a girl but
we're not for sure sure yet...ill update later gotta jet
mom will back soon and i said id only be on for like 15
minutes...time sure does fly when your having NO FUN right
anyways im out
dee




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