The Boy Looked At Johnny
2002-07-17 01:23:00 (UTC)

Vicious circle again

Oh, Jessica Kleimer Griffith, what am I going to do with you?

Of course we're dating. I'm having a good time. But I'm a bit
concerned; I think sometimes I'm just not feeling it like I should. I
enjoy her company, but I'm not head over heels at all. The physical
end of the relationship is sort of lackluster; she's just such an
inexpressive girl that any lovemaking just lacks any sort of
kick...oh, goodness me. Now that's fine, because she has so many
great attributes -- smart, feisty, culturally literate, cute -- and
she makes a wonderful friend. In that sense I'm crazy about her. But
it's been such a short amount of time, and the quality of
our relationship has been -- in my mind -- rather
unexciting. I just don't feel like a long-distance
arrangement is feasible in the least. I don't want that at

I thought I was fooling myself when I said over and over I
didn't want to be in a relationship. How strange. It turns
out I wasn't.

Getting down to it, I'm not sure that I really want to be in a
relationship right now.