LBangel

My thoughts, my feelings, my experiences
2002-07-16 13:46:12 (UTC)

He's Falling For Me!!!!! 7-16

Thats what he told me lastnight when we were laying in bed.
He goes, 'I think Im falling for you.' And I about started
to cry. My brain is screaming at me to stop, to call this
off, but my heat just wont let me, I just cant, I cant!

He is THE SWEETEST guy that I have EVER met. Sweeter then
Glenn, and I honestly didnt think Id ever find a guy that
compared to him. EVER. He says things like: 'You're every
mans dream.' 'Gosh you are so amazing.' 'I am so lucky to
be here with you right now.' 'Thank you for giving me one
of the best weekends of my life.' 'Hows the most beautiful
woman in Michigan doing.' And 'God you have sooo much sex
appeal.' OMG! How can I resist that, I just cant! and Im
not even gonna bother trying anymore. I am going to go with
the flow and do what feels right. There is something
between us, something incredible, wonderful, I cant explain
it. There's such a connection, its like....... magic.

We went out on a date lastnight. We both looked damn cute!
I wore a black shirt with the shorts under it and a green
baby polo shirt. He had on a grey polo shirt and khaki
shorts. We look really cute together. He's really preppy,
and I LOVE preppy. He bought me roses!! OMG Can he be any
more perfect?? He opens the door for me All the time. He
even pushed my chair in. And he held my hands when we were
sitting across from each other at the table. Ive never done
that before. I love it!! We went putt putt golfing. I
kicked his butt, but I think he let me win. Then we went to
eat at Applebees. Then we went back to his place and I met
his roommates. We went out on the balcony and were kissing
and talking. And then he goes, 'Gosh I wish I could just
hold you all night.' So he came home and stayed the night
with me. He has a little bed and he shares a room. So we'll
probably be spending more time together at my apartment.

He told all the guys at work about me. He said he walked in
and they go, 'Whats that shit eatin grin all about?' So he
told them all about me and about our weekend.

This part is gonna be really personal. But this is MY DIARY
and I want to be able to look back on things and remember
them. I know it is public but most of the perople who read
this dont know me and never will. The other people are my
friends and theyre bound to find out eventually anyways. So
here it goes.... OMG he is sooooo sweet! We make out and I
know that he is totally tuned into me. I know that he wants
me soooo bad. He tells me all the time that he wants to
make love to me. OMG!!!! I dont know how much longer I can
hold out. He totally worships my body. He absolutely loves
it! We were at the beach and I was in my bikini layin on my
back and he gosh, 'Mm Mm Mmmmmm' And I open my eyes and hes
staring at me. He also begs me to let him go down on me. He
loves it. That is a major difference. Most guys Ive dated
are grossed out by it. Danny never would. And I am soooo
self conscious about it. But he loves it. And shit, Im not
complaining. It is so awesome!!!! He is soooo all about me
and so giving. I had 2 of the best orgasams of my life
lastnight. It was amazing!! He is amazing!!

What the hell am I doing?? What the hell am I getting
myself into. HELLO LAURA!!!!!!! He is moving 14 hours away
in a month. And I am not doing this whole 'O I am going to
marry this guy' junk again. That has gotten me no where in
the past. AND BESIDES. Ive only known him for like 4 days.
But if we are this connected after that short amount of
time I dont know where we'll be in a month. And I DO NOT
want a long distance relationship again. Especially 14
hours, that is like super long distance. But he has brought
up going to grad school at Grand Valley or U of M. And he
said he likes Michigan. And he also said that he would have
no problem finding a job up here. And he only has 2
semesters lift before he graduates and he goes. 'Two
semesters is nothing! The time will fly by.' So Im guessing
hes pretty much willing to move back up here next summer.
But I am totally not asking him to do that, that is so much
of a sacrifice and I would be mad if he asked me to move to
Virginia and go to school there. But I know he wouldnt do
that. I told him about how I want to move south after I
graduate, probably to North Carolina. And his face totally
lit up. So I really dont know what is gonna happen. All I
know that I am going to totally enjoy EVERY SECOND I have
with him for the next month.

~*Laura




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