live the life
2001-07-01 03:25:25 (UTC)


i want to be able to eake up and go a whole day with out
thinking about him, but its not possible. i get so angry
when i think about him and her and everyone.i dont think
anyone could understand why i fell this way, until they are
sitting in my body, feeling what im feeling i just wanted
to be happy, and now im even more sad than before. its as
if he controls my feelings. i cant escape them. i just want
to see him again, but i cant. i have no part in his life,
no meaning. he told me that he wanted to still be friends,
but hes no where to be found. am i selfish for wanting him
so badly?