lilrocker84

Welcome To Hell...
2002-07-15 04:37:20 (UTC)

well well who do we have here...

well my day continues to suck...hence the reason i am back
to my journal...sooo i hope everybody else who reads this
has a better life then i do...yes suckie suckie
suckie...that is my sorry existence...what would i ever do
without this suckie life of mine...i don't know whatto do
with myself anymore...everyday i slip a little bit
further...i smile less and less enjoy others less and
less...there is such a small group of people that i
actually like...it's practically pathetic...no wait it is
pathetic...and it's not that i don't have friends...and
it's not that i don't know people who like me...it's just
there are only a select few people who's company actually
makes me feel better rather then worse...and i think i will
starve myself this week in a vain attempt to lose five
pounds...maybe i will actually lose the weight that would
be great...oh well i will keep you all updated...now today
i was listening to my disturbed cd for the millionth time...
(it's the most sacred in my collection)...i was really
taking in the lyrics to "want"... thats my favorite song on
the cd...the words are powerful and beautiful and exquisite
all at the same time...if i could listen to that song over
and over again i would be happy...for awhile...then i would
be me again...if anyone has found a solution to the
doldrums of everyday life...please send me the answer...but
drugs do not count...nor does suicide unless you have
saftey tested it...but other then that suggestions are
welcome...




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