Crazy in Blue

Singing In the Rain or A downpouring
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2002-07-14 06:17:36 (UTC)

BABY BABY BABY BABY BABY . . . .

IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I WROTE ANYTHING DOWN ABOUT WHAT
WAS GOIN ON WITH ME. THAT IS BECAUSE I HAVE SPENT ALOT OF
TIME THINKING ABOUT ME, AND MY FRIENDS. THIS HAS TURNED
OUT TO BE A 'ME' SUMMER. LIKE LAST SUMMER, I SPENT EVERY
WAKING MOMENT WITH ISAIAH. THE SUMMER BEFORE THAT IT WAS
MEL. AND THE SUMMER BEFORE THAT IT WAS NIKKI. FOR THE
FIRST TIME, I HAVE KEPT TO MYSELF, AND JUST STAYED IN THE
HOUSE. IT'S FUNNY TO ME, THAT NOW I KNOW WHAT I NEED IN MY
LIFE.

THAT JOURNEY THAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT TAKING, I DIDN'T TAKE
IT, THERE WAS NO POINT IN IT. I WAS DOING IT FOR THE WORNG
REASONS, AND IT ENDED UP THAT IT DIDN'T EVEN HAPPEN
ANYWAY. FUNNY HOW MY FEAR OF BEING LEFT OUT HAS ACTUALLY
TURNED INTO ME NOT GIVING A FUCK. I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT
ALL MY FRIENDS THINK OF ME. I DON'T CARE WHAT MY FAMILY
THINKS ABOUT ME, I JUST DON'T GIVE A FUCK. MY GOAL NOW, IS
TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF SCHOOL, GRADUATE, AND THEN MAKE
ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY OFF ALL MY DEBTS. THAT IS ALL I WANT
TO DO. ONCE I GET RID OF ALL MY DEBT, AND GET A CAR, I CAN
JUST DO WHAT I WANT TO DO.

FRIENDS ARE FLAKEY AS WELL. NANCY IS JEALOUS, AND SHE IS
TAKING IT OUT ON ME. ONCE AGAIN, DON'T HATE ON ME, BECAUSE
I HAD A DECENT LIFE, JUST MAKE YOUR LIFE DECENT. I LOVE
HER TO DEATH, BUT I HAVE REALIZED THAT IF I DON'T WANT TO
TOLERATE HER, I DON'T HAVE TOO. WHY PUT MYSELF IN THE
POSITION, WHEN IT'S NOT HEALTHY?

TALK ABOUT SOMEONE WHO IS A FLAKE, ISIAH. HE DECIDED THAT
WE NEEDED TIME APART WITHOUT TELLING ME ABOUT IT, AND THEN
DECIDES THAT KNOW THAT HE IS OVER ALL OF HIS SHIT, THAT HE
CAN JUST POP UP WHENVER THE FUCK HE WANTS TO. AND I AM
POSED TO BE SO GLAD THAT WE ARE "SPEAKING" AGAIN, THAT I
DON'T TAKE INTO ACCOUNT THE TIMES THAT I NEEDED HIM, AND HE
WASN'T THERE. THAT IS BULLSHIT. BUT I KNOW THIS, IM NOT
FALLING INTO THE TRAP OF ACTUALLY DEPENDING ON HIM TO HELP
ME IN MY LIFE. IF I HAVE A PROBLEM, I WILL FIX IT ON MY
OWN.

IT'S AMAZING TO ME HOW FRIENDS CAN TURN THE TABLES ON YOU
WHEN IT'S CONVINIENT FOR THEM. EVEN SIMONE IS TRIPPING
LATELY. IF YOU KNOW THAT I DON'T HAVE A CAR, AND YET YOU
CAN GO GET GROCERIES TO PUT IN MY FUCKING FRIG, THEN YOU
NEED TO TAKE ME TO FUCKING KROGERS, SO THAT I'M NOT
SPENDING HELLA MONEY ON FAST FOOD, WHEN I COULD JUST COOK
SHIT IN MY OWN HOUSE. YEAH, IM BITTER ABOUT THAT SHIT.
BECAUSE SHE BITCHES WHEN I DON'T DO THINGS HER WAY, BUT LET
SOMETHING THAT SHE WANTS TO DO NOT HAPPEN HER WAY, THEN SHE
HAS A SERIOUS ATTITUDE ABOUT IT. IT'S WHATEVA THOUGH. I
GOT ENOUGH MILK AND KRAFT MAC AND CHEESE TO LAST ME UNTIL I
CAN GET IN CONTACT SOMEONE TO GIVE ME A RIDE TO THE STORE.
IT'S WHATEVER, JUST WANTED TO VENT. IM DONE NOW

UNTIL FLAKY PEOPLE LURK AGAIN

CRAZY IN BLUE AKA NO MORE DRAMA


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