Just a girl.

My So Called Life.
2002-07-14 04:48:09 (UTC)

I had a request.

I had a request. Someone requested that I write in my
diary and update the world on my SO called life... So, I'd
like to dedicate this diary entry to that someone, Jamie
Bratcher a fan...maybe....a great friend...DEFINETLY! I
miss ya bunches! We HAVE to get together when I get back~so
we can PIMP all the BOYS in New Albany! ha ha~or have some
laughs while we are trying!
So, for all of you that don't knowI'm in a 3rd
world country! Yup, yup half way across the world in the
Philippine Islands...Manila to be exact! It's not so bad
here, although I thought I was going to DIE a VERY SLOW
death when I came here! At first, it was kind of like my
HELL on EARTH~VERY HOT and nobody to talk to...nobody
without an accent anyways. :( But I have adjusted, I sleep
when everybody else sleeps (12 hour time change) and I get
to spend some time with my parents before I take the plunge
into the REAL WORLD!
Everything is so up in the air right now~the changes
that are going on are so overwhelming. I feel like
everything around me is moving and I'm grabbing for
something that is nailed down but there's nothing there. I
guess that's what growing up is all about though...not
needing anything to grab on to...being able to stand up on
your own. But how am I suppose to do that? I wish somebody
would tell me cuz it's quite scary.
I was looking forward to comming home on the
first...finally something familiar....my bed, my bathroom.
Even that has changed. When I come back my address won't
even be the same. I'm going to live with my sister. Don't
get me wrong, I love my sister and I think it will be TONS
of fun living with her! I guess my feelings are just hurt,
I feel like a burden...a burden that just keeps getting
passed on to somebody else in my family. But I won't be a
burden much longer....just one more month.
One more month, and I'm off! The thought of it is so
unbelievably scary~moving into my dorm room, going to
class, meeting new people, adjusting to a whole new
life....the college life! I'll be all on my own...I hope
I'm strong enough to survive! I hope that New Albany High
School has educated me enough so that I don't fail
miserably! All I really hope is that everything will be
okay.....
On the plus side, I have a very cute (or CUE ha ha)
boy who is waiting for me! You got it ladies and gentlemen
Scottie! After all that whining and all that waiting! Who
would've thought that I'd finally get my chance! We've only
had 2 1/2 dates...and the first one was far from the fairy
tale date I imagined *cough cough, it sucked!! But the 2nd
one was better~he brought me flowerslillies (my fav!),
and we went on a carriage ride! And our 1/2 date, we sat on
the riverfront and talked for hoursI told him not to
wait for me and to date other girls (I know I'm crazy but I
have my reasons). Well...he never listens to me...so he's
waiting. I'm not sure how it's gonna end cuz I AM off to
Bloomington (where there will be many temptations ha ha)
but even if it doesn't work out at least I got my chance!
ha ha! Plus I got to make out with him! woohoo! Chica bow
wow! tee hee, well I'm out! Peace out playas! tee hee....




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