piglm

down in my eyes
2002-07-13 04:56:28 (UTC)

painless, when on purpose.

"but it doesn't make it any better,... Does it make it any better?"


I was searching thru all my boxes in the garage...
closing them, 'n reopening, 'n closing them again, tryen to
recover certain things. I'm so frusterated.
I KNOW my mom went thru my belongings while i was gone,
'n got rid of many things. When i asked her tho, she
shrugged, 'n tried to act innocent. she said she doesn't
remember. She couldn't even rationalize,.. or give me any
reasons, or excuses. I hope it's cuz she KNOWS she's wrong.
I'm so pissed. I'm missing afew cd's, certain small
belongings, 'n some clothes. i'm sure there's More.. that i
just can't think of, at the moment.
Supposedly not remembering.. of doing it, DOESN'T
make it any better.
She got rid of some of my FAVORITE clothes. I'm missing
most of my socks and underwear, too.
I hate.. to sound too materialistic- but,.. I miss them.

I accidently cut myself while i was opening up a box.
It hurt.. 'n it still hurts. i haven't ACCIDENTLY cut
myself..in a really long time. I almost forgot that it's
SUPPOSE to hurt.
I know it's prolly all psychological tho. 'Cos it never
hurts, otherwise. when on purpose.

Oh, nevermind..


"The painful realization... that Nobody cares, at all"

-Dashboard Confessional




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