Marisha,Terry's imag. friend

life, or something like it
2002-07-13 02:16:38 (UTC)

we are the lucky ones, dear

i wish i knew His name, so i could talk to Him, ask Him
about what this all is about... i wish i was able to find
out who will be next to enter my life, how, where, when...
but it's only wishes... i wish i was able to find out His
name, so i could ask the questions through the cards...

i wish i could find him, the other him... i want to hear
him say: never go away...

again, mostly cause bif naked: hold on, is playing... i do
want that one love... but i dont seem to be looking even...

"hold on to me, say you'll always love me,
tell me anything you want
hold on, baby, say you'll never leave me,
promis that you will hold on..."

it's just too bad how not everyone can apreciate this
phrase... but i sure wish i couldn't! *sadly smiles here,
looks up with tears in her eyes* it's so much easier to
just be able to live through it all with out all heart
breaks... be able to just enjoy life without looking into
anything deeply... be sweet, kind, and never know of
people's cruelty... so easy... but so not worth it! so i
guess i'm happy i turned out this way... i am happy i'm an
unhappy person! that's just ridiculous! but what can i
say... that's what i am...

i guess i am lucky after all, because once i find all i'm
looking for i will know what a price i paid for getting it,
and won't let it go (once again, how ironic). i just don't
wanna lose it all over again... and god do i wish i knew
what i'm looking for...

this is such a crazy msg, and i guess it doesn't make any
sence, so i'll just post it anyways
:)

later...




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