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THe DuCk wOrLd
2002-07-12 16:11:53 (UTC)

handover

hmm.. jovin they all handover to siu lun they all today..
quite alrite lah.. we pop the poppers.. dunno what st john
will bcome the next few yrs.. dun realli wanna think abt
it.. aye..

went to kenny rogerss for dinner.. quite dua pai leh us..
we reserved a number of tables.. hahax~ den sit with wende
and jing mei.. tok abt a lot of stuff today.. primarily on
sex.. hahax` tok abt pre-marital sex.. jus feel that have
sex education today loh.. but it'ss quite educating..
hahax~ and i envy wende weijia and jingmei.. they are so
good frenx! u noe rite.. they will pon sch one day together
and go to the beach.. lie down and look at the sky.. and
let the day paassed by.. it's so relaxing! so wu you wu
lv.. and also.. when weijia is vv sad rite.. she will call
him and ask him go over to jingmei's house one and he will
sae ok and jus go over.. how i wish i have frens lidaat..
that's why i like wende weijia jingmei.. they are my best
seniors!

however.. i felt vv down when hanwei and dianfang joined in
the conversation.. basically is that they condemned ugly
fat pple.. guys think i am ugly.. cos i am big sized and
ugly loh.. den it's like.. dunno leh.. i find what they say
vv hurting? not hurting.. but relates to me.. tok abt
pretty girls.. den not finding a boifren.. no guys will
like blah blah.. vv mean loh.. but in a sense true.. cos
typical guys think alike.. i mean, how many guys dun rate a
girl? how many guys dun go for looks in girl?? seldom guys
go for characteristics one.. only girls will bother to go
and find out their chaaracteristics.. yah.. i admit some
girls do go for looks.. but then they have the ben qian to
go for looks mah.. means they aare pretty themselves loh..

after what i hear frm hanwei and dianfang rite.. i suddenly
realise i dun wan a boifren anymore. i mean, vv tiring for
him one.. everytime have to hear critism abt me frm the
guys.. ask him why he so no eyes? choose me as his gf..
then i also cannot really describe how i feel loh.. but i
jus have this mentality that i dun wan to have boifrenss
anymore.. guys go for looks.. although xueling told me some
go for characterisitcs.. i also dunno loh.. hai.. den i was
like quiet on the way home loh.. frankly speaking, i dun
like to tok to hanwei and dianfang.. cos i am vv un-natural
around them, i will try to act like i want to impress them,
let them have a gd impression of me, but somehow it always
like backfires.. so i dun caare loh.. i wld rather not tok
to them, sometimes i see them tease sok, will get a bit
jealous one.. but suan le lahx, vv tired liaox, dunno leh..
haix..

and since dunno when, i have this mentality whenever i see
a couple together rite..i will envision them breaking up, i
noe it's vv mean of me. but i will jus think that the
couple will break up sonner or later cos guys only go for
their looks mah. it's like i dun believe in forever
anymore, vv funny rite.. since i do not have any emotional
sscars, yet like when i see vincent and his gf rite, i will
be thinking, are u sure they are really in love with each
other and not go for lookS? dunno leh, somehow i find it
hard to believe that he actually likes her or she actually
likes him.. it's kind of get together for the sake of being
together, dun wan to be lonely.. ha, also don't know where
i get this idea from, but one day i will suddenly be vv
surprised to realise that 2 of them are together.. and i
will find it weird. getting crazy.




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