Jencaero

poor aldo.... im hippo

draco752 (1:20:33 PM): oh and i havent heard from my mom
since yesterday
Hippobabe05 (1:20:34 PM): i dont lose weight
Hippobabe05 (1:20:40 PM): oh, ill pray for her ok?
draco752 (1:20:45 PM): thank you
Hippobabe05 (1:21:03 PM): hopefully it will be benign
Hippobabe05 (1:21:26 PM): my mom had a benign tumor ealier
this year it scared the crap out of me
Hippobabe05 (1:21:30 PM): when do you find out?
draco752 (1:21:47 PM): yesterday
Hippobabe05 (1:23:41 PM): no, i mean when do you find out
if its benign or not?
draco752 (1:23:51 PM): oh
draco752 (1:23:55 PM): beats me
Hippobabe05 (1:24:25 PM): oh
Hippobabe05 (1:24:30 PM): well i hope things gettbetter
draco752 (1:25:35 PM): ha
Hippobabe05 (1:26:25 PM): are you feeling ok?
Hippobabe05 (1:26:28 PM): why do you say ha?
draco752 (1:26:43 PM): *hug*
draco752 (1:26:55 PM): your so nice in your own twisted
way and i love ya for it
draco752 (1:26:58 PM): yea
draco752 (1:26:59 PM): kinda
Hippobabe05 (1:27:00 PM): twisted way?
draco752 (1:27:05 PM): i feel perturbed
draco752 (1:27:09 PM): i feel annoyed
Hippobabe05 (1:27:14 PM): with what?
Hippobabe05 (1:27:16 PM): the situation?
draco752 (1:27:21 PM): its like.... WHY THE CRAP AM I
STILL HERE!!
draco752 (1:27:27 PM): I SHOULD BE DOWN THERE
Hippobabe05 (1:27:53 PM): awe
Hippobabe05 (1:27:57 PM): can you do anything abou tit?
Hippobabe05 (1:28:12 PM): *about it
Hippobabe05 (1:28:29 PM): i mean about wehre you are?
Hippobabe05 (1:28:33 PM): is that what annoys you
Hippobabe05 (1:28:33 PM): ?
Hippobabe05 (1:28:42 PM): im sorry if im making you feel
bad with my questions
draco752 (1:31:13 PM): no its ok
draco752 (1:31:19 PM): i'm just doing other things too
Hippobabe05 (1:31:29 PM): yeah
draco752 (1:31:32 PM): and since i'm still in Sandy Eggo I
can't do much
Hippobabe05 (1:31:37 PM): yes butt
Hippobabe05 (1:31:40 PM): you can pray and
draco752 (1:31:40 PM): and i leave this monday, thank God
Hippobabe05 (1:31:49 PM): ok, if you cant do much just
Hippobabe05 (1:31:51 PM): accept it
Hippobabe05 (1:31:54 PM): nothings your fault
draco752 (1:31:56 PM): and the people here don't make me
feel any better
Hippobabe05 (1:32:05 PM): well, disregard it
draco752 (1:32:15 PM): humph
Hippobabe05 (1:32:16 PM): and make yourself feel better
then i guess i mean
Hippobabe05 (1:32:20 PM): i know that youre saying
Hippobabe05 (1:32:22 PM): its not fair
Hippobabe05 (1:32:26 PM): probably or soemthig
Hippobabe05 (1:32:30 PM): and its not but
draco752 (1:32:31 PM): i dont ask for fairness
Hippobabe05 (1:32:34 PM): i know
draco752 (1:32:37 PM): i just want someone to talk to
Hippobabe05 (1:32:39 PM): but would you wish to have it
draco752 (1:32:41 PM): someone to hug me
Hippobabe05 (1:32:43 PM): yeah......
draco752 (1:32:49 PM): someone to just be there with me
Hippobabe05 (1:32:53 PM): its always nice just to have
people there
Hippobabe05 (1:34:02 PM): but like i said just
Hippobabe05 (1:34:05 PM): dont get down on yourself
Hippobabe05 (1:34:14 PM): because you dont deserve to be
making yourself feel bad
draco752 (1:35:22 PM): *smile*
Hippobabe05 (1:35:31 PM): *hug*
draco752 (1:35:33 PM): of course, since you know me so
well.....
Hippobabe05 (1:35:48 PM): im sorry
Hippobabe05 (1:35:51 PM): im just trying to help
Hippobabe05 (1:35:54 PM): :-[
Hippobabe05 (1:35:57 PM): keyword trying
draco752 (1:36:33 PM): as i've told katie and nikki and
almost anyone else that has come to know me well.....
don't say i don't deserve what comes to me, becuase if you
knew me completely you wouldnt like me at all. i only let
you see what might please you and not offend you.
draco752 (1:36:40 PM): and thank you for trying to help
draco752 (1:36:46 PM): i REALLY appreciate it
draco752 (1:37:12 PM): except don't try to change the way
i feel, its the way i feel, its as untouchable by logic as
love is
Hippobabe05 (1:37:36 PM): but you see
Hippobabe05 (1:37:42 PM): i am touched by logic
Hippobabe05 (1:37:47 PM): and logic sometimes
Hippobabe05 (1:37:51 PM): dictates actions
Hippobabe05 (1:37:57 PM): so when i try to change the way
you feel
Hippobabe05 (1:38:02 PM): even if it wont work
Hippobabe05 (1:38:06 PM): something in me makes me want to
draco752 (1:38:12 PM): well my actions are never that
controlled by my feelings
Hippobabe05 (1:38:56 PM): mine are
Hippobabe05 (1:38:57 PM): sometimes
Hippobabe05 (1:39:03 PM): im not sure, i dont know myself
well enough
draco752 (1:39:10 PM): plus, at the moment, i'm enjoying
wallowing in my spit and dung. Comferting after being
seperated from it for so long.
Hippobabe05 (1:39:12 PM): and aldo, how do you know the
inner you is so horrid
draco752 (1:39:20 PM): lol
Hippobabe05 (1:39:20 PM): how can you know yourself when
it constantly changes?
draco752 (1:39:21 PM): lol
Hippobabe05 (1:39:22 PM): i know more logic
draco752 (1:39:29 PM): trust me
Hippobabe05 (1:39:33 PM): lol
draco752 (1:39:35 PM): if i could say all the things i've
thought
draco752 (1:39:40 PM): things i've done
draco752 (1:39:46 PM): things i STILL think
Hippobabe05 (1:39:46 PM): it doesnt matter though
Hippobabe05 (1:39:49 PM): youre here NOW
draco752 (1:39:50 PM): things i still do
Hippobabe05 (1:40:01 PM): it doesnt make you horrible
Hippobabe05 (1:40:07 PM): because everybody
Hippobabe05 (1:40:10 PM): has that in them
draco752 (1:40:20 PM): so if you so a murder would you say
he was a good guy????
draco752 (1:40:42 PM): so if an atheist said that NO ONE
should EVER pray to God, would you find him innocent?????
Hippobabe05 (1:40:52 PM): not innocent but
Hippobabe05 (1:40:54 PM): forgiven
Hippobabe05 (1:41:00 PM): if it was wrong
Hippobabe05 (1:41:04 PM): i dont know everything about
them
Hippobabe05 (1:41:20 PM): so who am i to condemn them
Hippobabe05 (1:41:23 PM): there are reasons foreverythign
Hippobabe05 (1:41:31 PM): reasons that perhaps im unaware
of
draco752 (1:41:48 PM): then keep that in mind whenever you
get mad at someone else
Hippobabe05 (1:41:52 PM): i hate the fact that the person
killed someone not the person themselves
Hippobabe05 (1:41:57 PM): yes, its hard to
draco752 (1:42:00 PM): or when you feel unjistified by
someone else
Hippobabe05 (1:42:04 PM): im a hypocrite
draco752 (1:42:11 PM): don't except it
draco752 (1:42:17 PM): it makes you weaker
Hippobabe05 (1:42:21 PM): how do you know what?
Hippobabe05 (1:42:24 PM): :-D
Hippobabe05 (1:42:28 PM): im a different person
Hippobabe05 (1:42:40 PM): lol i try not to be
Hippobabe05 (1:42:44 PM): but i knnow that i am
Hippobabe05 (1:42:58 PM): its better in my opinion to
agknowledge faults
draco752 (1:43:01 PM): just as i know that i am a wretch
of a 15 year old
Hippobabe05 (1:43:02 PM): that way you can improve upon
them
Hippobabe05 (1:43:07 PM): then to remain ignorant
Hippobabe05 (1:43:11 PM): you are not a wretch
Hippobabe05 (1:43:15 PM): you tell yourself that
draco752 (1:43:16 PM): you say that i am good but only
becuase all you see is my redemption
Hippobabe05 (1:43:18 PM): and you believe it
Hippobabe05 (1:43:24 PM): ah, but i see you as well
draco752 (1:43:35 PM): do you?
Hippobabe05 (1:43:38 PM): but even if i saw all your fault
Hippobabe05 (1:43:38 PM): s
draco752 (1:43:41 PM): i am a great actor you know???
Hippobabe05 (1:43:42 PM): you would still be aldo
Hippobabe05 (1:43:48 PM): do you think that
Hippobabe05 (1:43:50 PM): everything that i do
draco752 (1:43:51 PM): not really
Hippobabe05 (1:43:52 PM): is REAL?
draco752 (1:43:57 PM): but apperantly i am
Hippobabe05 (1:44:02 PM): but
Hippobabe05 (1:44:04 PM): its reflection
Hippobabe05 (1:44:06 PM): on yoursel
Hippobabe05 (1:44:06 PM): f
draco752 (1:44:10 PM): well not really and i'll be back
Hippobabe05 (1:44:12 PM): how you act is a reflection of
yourself
Hippobabe05 (1:44:13 PM): ok say when
draco752 (1:44:21 PM): i NEED shower
draco752 (1:44:24 PM): tell you when
Hippobabe05 (1:44:26 PM): ok coolness