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Meditations on the Abyss
2002-07-11 03:59:12 (UTC)

when it rains....

hello,

current thoughts: contempletive

well another day. It has been a most contempletive day
and i think it is at the point where i am beginning to
second guess myself. i always have this tendancy to become
extreamly self-critical during times of severe importance.
it is probably the most serious fault and the worst habit
of mine. overall i am still kinda worried about how
everything is going to work out. it is as another point
that i cannot be absolutly realistic about this, that i
fall into being cynical about this, my mind has already
gone throuhg the worst of what can happen. some of it has
come, some has not. It makes me the cheerful pessemist,
that i plan for the worst and am happy if it doesn't happen
but often not surprised by it coming. such is life.

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The heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of.
-Blaise Pascal
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later.




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