Mista Of Silent Death

Ramblings of the Mad and Distrubed
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2002-07-09 02:04:25 (UTC)

Pissed the fuck off and i cant cry..........

Well now i let myself get out of the house for about and
hour with my friend kris..... She is cool and her baby and
her boy friend eric.....

We were goning swimming.. yay for me i love to swim.. Well
anyways i went i saw i swam.. Until they got pissy with
each other in the pool she accidently scratched him in the
pool and it stated a fight.. Well needless to say it sucked
ass......... I am so tired of fighting with them and
everyone else everyone seems to know what i need except me
i have no god damn idea what i need in my life... besides
some one to just tell me it is gonna be ok... and not judge
me for who i am.... OR the things i do...

Im so tired all i want to do is hurt myself let it out some
how but i cant cry i just cant i want to deep down inside i
know i need to but my brain tells me no dont do it..... SO
i ambly listen to it cos it knows what i need more than my
heart does..... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH i hate myself right now HATE
i tell you i want to do something bad but if i do people
will freak the fuck out and then ill have to listen to
there fucken mouth for hours tonight and i am not in the
mood for that so ill just try to feel better on my own some
how......... ill write more late Mistra