LoveGod

Different Worlds
2002-07-08 01:56:14 (UTC)

i don't want to go!!!

I'm going to the movies with Matt tomorrow, and I don't
want to. Okay, I do want to go because I haven't been out
since I came home for the summer, but I don't want it to
be weird. At least with Byron I didn't really care. I
guess that's part of my problem with Matt. I do care
about him and I don't want to hurt him. I guess I'm also
afraid of getting hurt, although I don't know why or even
how that would happen. Oh well. I went and played tennis
earlier. Now I stink. I just ate too much watermelon. I
didn't bother to go to church today. I couldn't think of
anywhere I wanted to go. I woke without my alarm clock up
in plenty of time to go anywhere, but I didn't want to.
I'm going to do a retreat of silence kind of thing as soon
as I get done with my email and stuff. Then I'm going to
open a bottle of wine and take a really long, hot bath.
Yippee!!!




Ad: