Manny Fresh

Manny Fresh's Life
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2002-07-06 06:38:40 (UTC)

Sadness Or Happiness/Both

Dear Diary,
Do You Ever Sit Down And Wonder What This World Is
Really About?Whats Meant To Be For You And Whats Not?Is
There Any Word Such As Perfect?Who Knows!I Don Even Wanna
Talk Bout My Day Today Cause It Wasnt Good And It Wasnt Bad
In Other Words Nuttin New Or Exiting!A Question In Mind To
Which This Whole Entry Is About Is....Is It Possible To
Feel Good Depressed Or Not?Can You Be Sad But Happy At The
Same Time?I Wonder For Tha Fact That When Im Depressed And
Feeling Down Is When My Whole And True Feeling Come Out
Rather Then When Im Happy Im COnfused And Not Knowing What
I Want Cause I Got Everything There!Sittin At My Cuz Crib
Talking Bout Love With David And Brenda I Wonder If Its
Truly The Greatest Feeling Ever Or Not!If Love Is Soo Great
Why Does It Hurt?Why Do You Have To Give Your Heart Out To
Someone When You Really Dont Know If The Other Is Giving
Theirs To You!Can I Really Settle Down Anymore Or Am I Too
Afraid To Get Hurt Again!IM Not Saying Im Fallin Or Im
Depressed At The Moment There Just Q's Out Of Curiosity
That Come To Mind. I Believe Im An Average 17 Year Old Who
Dosent Exactly Knows What He Wants In Life And Yet Has More
To Learn And Experience In The Years To Come!Right Now I
Can Honestly Say I Dont KNow What I Want, Comittment Or To
Remain As Iam.Perhaps Im Just Waiting For That Right Person
So Therefor I Can Quit Fronting And Being Such A Pussy Of
Lettin People Control Me And Do Me However!IM Tired Of
Sittin and Waiting To See What Happens With My Life As It
Goes ON Past Me Just Watching It Go By!Why?Why Not Step Up
Like A Man And Quit Being A Coward And Do Somethign About
It That Will Make A Difference. Thats What I Tried Today
And Even Though I Was Unsuccesful I Accomplished By Growing
Some Balls And Stepping Up To One Of My Fears, It Might Of
Not Gotten What I Wanted But I Got The Feeling That I Can
Do What I Want If I Really Put My Mind Into It And Thats A
Good High Strung Feeling To Get.Right Now IM Speechless And
Left Without A Word In Mind. Can I Possibly Go A Day
Withouth Talking Bout Some Gurl Or Love.I Dunno I Seriosuly
Doubt It!Who Am I Really?And Who Do I Really Want Cause I
Know I Do Know What I Dont Want. I Wish I Could Just Wake
Up One Day Beside Or Meeting That One Gurl Ive Always
Pictured Sweet,With A Nice Pretty Smile That Glitters And
Shows That She Can Treat And Do me Right Cause I Belive I
Gurls Eyes And Smile Tells You All About Them Wether There
Sweet or Cocky And Thinking There All That. In My Book
There Is No One Better Than Anyone Else. We Are All Equal
And No One Is Above Anyone Else Were Just All In The Same
Level On the Same Step Practically.To Those Who Think
Otherwise Your Just Weaker In Your Mind!!!Think Of Me What
YoU Wanna Think It Makes No Difference!Who Are You To Judge
Me Or Do Me The Way You Want To Do Me. Who Are You?


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