OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2002-07-04 00:52:14 (UTC)

I think that people need to..

I think that people need to have a better
understanding of friendship. I know that I might not be
the one to talk, but I seriously try my hardest to save
people from getting hurt. In that process I might hurt
them a bit, but I'd rather have them be mad at me for it
then to be heart broken, or worse. I know that it might
not seem like I am out to help people, but I truly am. At
least now I am. I can't say that was my intent in the
begining, I just know that since December or so, I've
really tryed to look out for the people I truly care about,
they might not think that, but that's the truth, the honest
truth. I know that latly I've been in the middle of an all
out brawl, but now I think that's over, and now a new one
is forming, this time only including one of the original
members. I really don't care if people get mad at me and
hate me, I can live with that, I just can't live with
people getting hurt when I know that I could have absorbed
some of that pain for them. If something I know that I am
about to say is going to hurt you to have to hear, think
how painful it is to me to have to say it. I know that I'm
the type of person who goes all around saying things I
don't mean, but I just can't help it. I think of it as
letting all my anger out right then and there so that I
don't have to worry about it later, and then life can go on
from there. The reason I believe I do t