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Mysterious Attitude
2002-07-02 15:45:25 (UTC)

pt. 2: Relationships/Boyz

Okay... this page is going to cover all the things going on
with me and boys that I like or may be going out with.


~*~*GEORGE~*~*

Omg, I dunno where to start. Who would've known after all
this time me and him are still talking. At one point we
didn't talk for a while and when we did we didn't talk for
long. I was pissed at him over Megan(sum gurl he likes). He
kept talking about her and Erica, which didn't help me much
cuz I liked him a lot. So I got pissed told him to take
Erica and Megan and stick them up his ass, and hung up on
him times upon times. I cried a little and wrote a poem
describing how I felt. Which is already on here... it was
part of the letter I wrote him.
We kept having phone sex almost everynight we talked and
when I started to go out with Paul... I did it once(well
make that 3 times now).

George wanted to come to my house a few days ago, (Last
Thursday today is Tues. July 2) at first everything was
cool... I mean damn my mom even said yes. I didn't want to
see him tho and once he brought up Erica I snapped. I told
him that my house wasn't a meeting place for him and Erica
and if he wanted to see her he better be goin to her house
to do so cuz he wasn't going to see her at mine. Well, he
went down to my mom's work to talk to her. I was so upset
by that time tho, (crying, screaming, even puked once) and
I had talked to Erica for a few minutes. I got into a fight
with gram over George and Erica..... and even Jr.

In the end George came over here. He spend about 3 hours
over here. I tell ya, my mom hates him. He don't have any
respect for anyone's house. She don't want him to come back
here ever again. Umb... Paul also wanted to see me that day
but I couldn't see him b-cuz of George.(more under Paul)

Anyway, me and George just hung out, walked down to the
park, walked back to my house, and my mom and I took him
home. I didn't want to hang out with him b-cuz of Paul...
but I did. ::Sighs::

Oh yea... the letter I wrote him he got. It wasn't meant
to be sent out but I put it on the table and my uncle sent
it out for me. =-/ Now since George read the letter he
likes me and wants to go out with me. One problem.... I GOT
PAUL!! Like I told George he had his chance and I don't
really like him anymore, but to keep him quiet I told him I
would go out with him after me and Paul break up. I'm not
quite sure what's going to happen b-cuz all this just
happened the last 2 days. But I know George keeps calling
me wanted to have phone sex, and no matter how much I don't
want to...he knows how to get me to the point in which I
will. I dunno what made him like me all of a sudden but
eh... whatever I don't care anymore.

Well, now George and I don't talk. My aunt or someone called him at
sum point, and was saying if he didn't quit calling me he would be
put in jail. So, to save his ass, he told whoever it was that I had
sex with Justin as well as a lot of other things. My aunt still
claims she didn't do it, but I think she did. I also think the thing
with Justin got back to him. (more under *Justin* how I
reacted)

George still calls me every once in a while to start chaos. The last
time he called me Megan was on the phone. *this gurl he likes* Grr,
that shit pissed me off!!

Megan- Well when I liked George, I used to get mad cuz he always
talked about her. From what I heard she is a hoe, and from what she
had George tell me, she is also a bitch. Lets hope I never see her.

Paul and George- They know each other and I called them both 3way on
my phone before to let them talk. Eh, Paul got pissed off cuz George
kept saying shit, and had said "Helena, i could get u if i really
wanted to couldn't i?" Well, at that time me and Paul was going out,
and he got totally mad and said "U have to go thru me first." So
yea, George loves to cause shit.

~*~*PAUL~*~*


First seeing him- Well before school ended I went down to
the park to meet Paul. I brought Erica with me b-cuz Paul
was going to bring his friend Eric. So while waiting for
Paul to get there... me and Erica saw Ino. Her ass calls
him over and he talked to us for a few minutes. He asked us
what we were doing there and Erica said
*Actually Helena is waiting for a boy.
Ino was like...
*Oh really... U go gurl... look at u... what kind of boy?* (he
looked me
up
and down and smiled* I was like
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\"Oh no
one.\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\"
He was
like
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\"okay
sure...\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\
" Then he said he had
to leave... so
as
he was walkin he stopped and looked back at me and said
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\"Be
careful with the boys aight?
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\" I
looked
at him and
said
\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\"Don't
worry I will
thanks\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\"
. Oh
yea he also said
stuff
about my shirt... I had my 2Pac one on and Ino loves
2Pac!! :)

Anywho... Erica spotted Paul and his player jersey. At
first they wouldn't come close to me and Erica. But then
they finally did. My first reaction was.. oh damn he must
not like me... eh oh well his lost not mine. He kept
messing with Erica and stuff and his boy Eric just messed
about with the playground equipment.They chilled wit us a little bit,
and left. Right when they were leaving Bobby pulled up in his van.
*it could only happen to me huh* lol

When I talked to Paul the next day he said he liked both me and Erica
and wanted to go out with both of us. I was like oh hell no. Thank
god Erica told him no to. He ended up getting back together, breaking
up, and now we're back together. *I think* His birthday was the 8th
of Aug. but he was missing for like a week. When he got a hold of me,
I was sorta pissed. He told me he had to work, but I'm sorta not
believing it but whatever.

The second time we went out, he came back to the park just to see me.
We were sitting on the little bridge thing, and he kept wanting me to
get closer to him. I was sorta nervous and didn't want to, but he
manged to pull me closer to him. He then took off this silver chain
with a charm that has jesus on a cross, and he gave it to me. We
kissed a couple times, were hugging a lot, gave each other hickies,
and other things like that. He kept tryin to get my bra off but he
couldn't hehe. I was teasing him by rubbing his dick thru his pants
but nothing serious. He also kissed my neck, which is my hot spot.
Omg, hehe I LOVED that!! It felt good to be able to act like a
gurlfriend to sumone in public. :)

For his birthday I got him a silver chain and giving him my glow in
the dark dice earring, but I haven't gave it to him yet cuz I haven't
talked to him.

Oh yea, I also found out that either Paul asked Erica out or Erica
asked Paul out. Either way, they both said yes. Problem is, me and
him were going out at that time. It didn't really bother me when
Erica told me. I asked Paul, he told me the truth and I asked him who
he wanted to be with. He said me, and that was the end of the story.

The last fight me and Paul had, we broke up again, just to go out
once again. I got so upset, which resulted me in cutting myself,
writing myself that email *which is already in here*, and crying. It
shocked me when I talked to him a few days l8er cuz he said we was
still going out and stuff :) We have 2 songs... Staind-It's always
raining in my head and Joe-I wanna know *our new one*

When Paul got back from \\\"missing\\\" me
and him got in
another
fight,
and I'm not sure if we are still going out or not but we might be.

Oh yea, I've also written Paul 4 different times. He hasn't ever
wrote me back, but umm he like calls me and answers what I asked in
the letters lol.

~*~*JUSTIN~*~*

Well, I just found out today 8-19-02, that Justin tried to kill
himself again. He jumped off a 75 foot bridge into shallow water. No
one knows how he is, the hospital is only saying that he is
\\\"alive\\\".
The sucky part about it,he was going to be able to come home for home
visits in a few weeks :( :( I hope to god he is okay!!

Okay, when George told my aunt.... *i think she called* that I had
sex wit Justin, my gram told me Renee asked Justin about it. Omg, I
freaked out. I cried, cut myself 18 times *how old Justin is going to
be*, and literally went crazy. George kept trying to calm me down, on
the phone but I kept hanging up on him and cussing him out and shit.
I l8er asked my aunt about it, she said she didn't call him, but I
know her ass did. I also told her that I DID not have sex with
Justin. Which is sumwhat true.

More on Justin, on pt. 3 Events~

~*~*JOE~*~*

Joe has been talking to me a little bit more. I'm just been trying
to figure out why lol.

~*~*RYAN~*~*

Ryan and I are still talking. We've been in a lot of fights tho. He
got pissed cuz me and Paul were going out, which i think the chat is
already in here. I asked him to find me a bi-sexual female, but he
wouldn't do it unless I had a 3-sum with him and the gurl. I actually
thought about doing it, but then was like "Nah, I have Paul."
But
it pissed me off that he won't do anything for me unless he gets
sumthing.

Oh yeah, Ryan also got to the point where he said he didn't like me
anymore and that I was a bitch. Mostly b-cuz I was with Paul. But as
soon as me and Paul broke up, he said he always liked me and stuff.
He don't know me and Paul are still going out tho.

~*~*STEVEN~*~*

Rememeber that boy I used to talk online to that got killed? Well,
Erica showed me his pic. Omg, he was such a cutie!! RIP Steven!!

~*~*Larry~*~

Remember Larry, the boy I met that was a drug dealer? Well, I
haven't talked to him for a long time, but I imed him the other day.
It wasn't him tho... it was his future wife? I guess they are getting
married. lol

~*~*WILLIAM AND BILLY~*~*

William- This boy my aunt knew. Hot, 18, has a daugher who's 2 i
think, and been in a out of jail. Have a crush on.

Billy- Renee's best friend, Na Na's son. 17, sorta cute, used to hate
him.

Well, I got this IM one day. The person claiming to be William. Omg,
I was sooooo freaking happy. I later found it was Billy. Billy told
me that William had talked to me, but he did to. *cuz I found it it
was Billy's sn* So, eh I still talk to Billy online every once in a
while.

~*~*CHRIS~*~*

Eh... this boy still pages me and stuff. He wants to get with me,
but I told him that I was with Paul. When me and Paul broke up, he
still wanted to get with me but I told him to wait. But since me and
Paul are back together me no go with Chris lol.

Anyway, I found out Chris's real last name from one of his friend's
who paged me.I talked to his friend Mike for a little bit but he
ended up liking me a little bit so I quit talking to him lol.

~*~Alexander~*~*

I've talked to him on the phone a few times, and met him. See, I was
walking down the street with my friend Danielle.*more about her
under Friends pt. 4.* When I seen this guy that looked familar walk
towards us. He asked me if he knew me, I was like nah I don't think
so. But when he asked me my name he knew who I was. He ended up
hanging out with us for a LONG time, until my mom came to get me.
He's okay looking, but I don't really like him for sum
reason. ::shudders::: He knew who I was from a picture I sent him
online. Damn that fuckin picture lol.

~*~ALEX my second kiss~*~

He was online a while ago, and wanted me to call him. So, I did. We
had phone sex, and he wanted to see me again. I was wit Paul tho, so
I didn't go out to see him again. I haven't talked to him since. He
is soooooooooo odd. lol

~*~*BOBBY my first kiss~*~*

I've seen him a couple times. He seen me when I was at tha park with
Erica, and stopped for a second to shake my hand and talk to me. I
always see him driving past my house in his van as well. He IMEd me a
long time ago, and wanted to see me again, but I didn't go out to see
him cuz I was still with Paul.

~*~*BOBBY online boyfriend~*~*

Well, I guess me and him are going out, only b-cuz I haven't talked
to him to tell him it's over. He's never online anymore, so oh well.

~*~*JOHN Leah's friend~*~*

I've been talking to John a little bit more lately. We had phone sex
twice, and he wants me to come down to where he lives to see him. lol
Crazy stuff huh??

~*~*MATT~*~*

It's always good to save the best for last now right? Matt, is
someone I meet online. He imed me one day out of no where and we have
been talking since. We have a lot of computer sex, but its all just
in good fun. He's a hottie and really sweet to me. I'm really
starting to like him. Is is possible to find your soul mate online?
Cuz, he's just like me, it's freaking scary!! I'll be calling him
soon on the phone, and I've put a couple of our chats in here. I
think the world of this boy. When me and him meet, he asked me if we
got along well... if we could maybe go out. Of course I said yes!!
Problem is.... he don't know I'm going out with Paul and I wanna keep
it that way!


~*~*ENDING NOTE~*~*

Well, that is all about tha boyz and relationships in my life. So,
lets move on to another part shall we?




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