Jasmine

~*~*~Princess~*~*~
2002-07-01 19:49:16 (UTC)

"AM I READY?!"

ON THURSDAY, DONALD DITCHED SCHOOL AND SPENT THE DAY WITH
ME. HE WAS HERE FROM 8 TO 6. I REALLY ENJOYED HIS COMPANY.
THINGS STARTED OFF SLOWLY BECAUSE WE WERE WAITING FOR
EVERYONE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE. WHEN EVERYONE LEFT I MOVED THE
PILLOWS THAT HE AND I WERE HOLDING AND I PULLED HIM CLOSE
TO ME. WE WERE KISSING LIKE THAT FOR A WHILE, AND THEN I
SAT ON HIS LAP AND STARTED KISSING HIM. THEN HE LAY ME DOWN
ON THE COUCH AND GOT ON TOP OF ME. WE WERE MAKING-OUT FOR
WHAT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER. I TOOK HIS SHIRT OFF AND STARTED
UNBUTTONING HIS PANTS, BUT THAT WAS AS FAR AS IT WENT. WE
WERE REALLY TIRED AFTER OUR MAKE-OUT SESSION, SO WE WENT TO
SLEEP…YES, HE WAS STILL LAYING ON ME. IT WAS SO CUTE! WHEN
I’D BE SLEEPING HE WOULD KISS ME ON THE CHIN OR ON THE
NECK….ADORABLE! IT FELT SO GOOD WHEN HE WOULD LIKE MY NECK.
THEN HE’D GO DOWN TO THE START OF MY BREASTS. I WISH HE
WOULD’VE GONE FURTHER DOWN. WHILE HE WAS LICKING MY NECK I
WHISPERED INTO HIS EAR, “I LOVE YOU,” AND HE TOLD ME HE
LOVED ME, TOO. I REALLY ENJOYED HIS COMPANY.

I TALKED TO HIM ON THE PHONE YESTERDAY. THE MOST IMPORTANT
THING HE SAID WAS ON THE LINES OF, “IF I SUGGEST SOMETHING
MORE, WOULD YOU DO IT?” AND I TOLD HIM, “YEAH! I WAS TRYING
TO GIVE YOU HINTS AND CLUES, BUT YOU WEREN’T ACTING UPON
THEM.” BUT LATER THAT NIGHT AFTER I HAD GOTTEN OFF THE
PHONE WITH HIM, I WAS REALL TRYING TO THINK ABOUT IT. AM I
READY? WE ARE TALKING ABOUT LOSING MY VIRGINITY HERE. IT’S
ONLY BEEN 4 MONTHS. DOES IT SEEM TOO SOON? I LOVE HIM BUT I
DON’T BELIEVE I’M IN LOVE WITH HIM. DOES HE REALLY LOVE ME?
THESE ARE ALL QUESTIONS I WILL BE ASKING HIM AND MYSELF THE
NEXT TIME WE COME CLOSE. HIS FRIEND, KRIS (WHO DROPPED HIM
OFF), GAVE HIM A CONDOM. HE TOLD MANDISA, “I GAVE HIM SOME
HELP…” I JUST DON’T WANT TO LOSE MY VIRGINITY AND END UP
REGRETTING IT. I SUPPOSE ALL THAT MATTERS IS THAT I LOVE
HIM AND HE LOVES ME. I JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE HE’S TELLING
THE TRUTH WHEN HE SAYS HE LOVES ME.

YESTERDAY WAS MY DADS BIRTHDAY. I MADE HIM A CAKE AND WE
SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY. IT WAS NICE FOR SOMETHING LOW BUDGET.
MY MOM IS LIGHTENING UP A BIT. I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S GOTTEN
INTO HER, BUT SHE IS SENDING ME TO FLORIDA. I GET TO SEE
FADI AGAIN! THE LAST TIME THAT I WAS OUT THERE HE TOLD ME
HE WOULD HOOK ME UP WITH ONE OF HIS COUSINS, BUT I HAVE A
BOYFRIEND. I LOVE ARABS, THOUGH. THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH
MEETING PEOPLE, RIGHT?

--JAZZ