pixie37373

randomness
2002-07-01 17:05:29 (UTC)

entry one

my shoulders are killing me....i don't know why...i don't
work out...i don't do much of anything in fact....but my
shoulders, they hurt...i need someone to massage
them....but i'm at work...and yeah, not so much...i dunno,
i'm a tense person anyway, so my shoulders are always
strange....but they don't usually hurt...am i more tense
than usual? did i sleep funny?

so i started this thing so i'd have somewhere to write and
record my random thoughts while i'm at work (for the
summer, i've got a fellowship at nasa til classes start
again)...my actual journal is back at home and i won't
bring it to work and it tends to be all deep and depressing
most of the time anyway...so this will give me something
besides email to keep me busy...don't get me wrong, it's
not like i don't work, but 8 to 9 hours is a long time to
keep yourself busy with work everyday...and i don't so much
like programming...

so i figured out the root of all my guy problems today -
boredom....the nice, sweet guys are great friends but tend
to bore me in relationships....i need a guy who intrigues
me, keeps me guessing, is just totally
interesting...problem is, these guys don't tend to be the
caring, emotionally sensitive guys that i need...right, so
i have all these great guy friends that will each make some
girl really happy and i can't be attracted to any of
them....so i date guys that end up screwing with me
emotionally, even if they don't mean to....frustrating,
definitely frustrating....

and my shoulders still hurt




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