sopeywater

does the pope hate catholics?
2002-06-29 21:53:25 (UTC)

fog,mog,jog,log,wog,kog

yeah so I'm despertly bored. I was supposed to go to the
dam with lacey and dianna and......a whole bunch other
people but, I didnt go. I dont know why. I easily could
have walked over to the dam. but I didnt. I called lacey
once to see what was up and she just said "I have to wait
for eric to call" and I hung up and I was on my way to
going to the dam when I got this strong want to not go. I
didnt see any people there yet so I just went to my dock to
lay out and catch some rays. I probably should have gone
but I was really the odd man out it would be 4 girls and 3
boys. It was basically going to be couples....and me. I'm
having some strange problems with my self image. the last
thing I needed was a bunch of couples. I'm really afraid to
have a nother relationship. not just because its summer
but...I dunno I just feel like it would be way too much
work. I feel sort of pressured to get out there and work to
get a boyfriend because almost every one of my friends have
a boyfriend. its peerpreasure comming into play. The big
reason I'm afraid to get involved again is that I'm afraid
of getting my feelings hurt again.I havent had anyone since
november. I think.....yeah november. I dont like whats
involved with boys. it ends up so jagged in the end...well
at least it does with me. I havent talked to ANY of my ex-
boyfriends after I have dumped them. I'v only been the
dumpiee once, he just dumped me before I had the chance to
dump him, I was a good sport deffinatly though. I just
never talked to him again. I dont think I could ever really
talk to my last ex. That had trouble written all over it.
For a while there I was just hopeing he was dead like there
was no other. Its nerve racking, it really is. I;m to tired
to go into it. anywho whith all that said I deffinatally
cant go out with anyone for a while, or even for a long
time. I'm not READY!
I'm DONE




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