Anna

babbling

i feel groddy.....after lots of tossing and turning last
night i think i have everything figured out....or at least
im satisfied with what i have managed to figure out about
myself.....first of all....i am way too into the thought of
having a boyfriend.....like....i like to daydream too much
i mean dreams are fun......but i have to live in the real
world......and in reality there is really no guy that i
know right now that would truly make me happy......so i
think my whole complications with a certain person was all
in my head.....i just hope he isnt too weirded out by my
behavior.....=/ cause he is a very good
friend.....certainly one of the people i will miss the most
at berkeley......speaking of missing people.....jenny!,
sigh what am i going to do without her?....she was supposed
to be like my blankie.......she is one of hte only people
in the world that can totally frustrate the crap out of me,
but thats usually because she knows me so well that she can
totally call me on stupid things that i pull.....sigh who
is going to keep me in line?....its supposed to be my own
job....but sigh.....im just gonna miss her so much and like
no matter how much we are going to keep in touch.....i
dono...we are going to change.....she's gonna totally
become a fob.....not that would make me like her less...but
its just scary......like we are so in tune with each other
right now.......in a few months we are going to have these
hugely different experiences and we already may be
different people......things are changing WAY to
quickly....im scared......dammit.....i ARGH.....not only is
all this happening so quickly....but like......im going
away this summer.....in like 2 days actually.......and i
still need to figure out where im gonna stay.....ARGH!