Loveridden

Unholy and Dirty and Beautiful Me
2002-06-27 05:07:30 (UTC)

If you know where you stand..

Talking someone else through something similar to what
I've been through just might be my ticket to understanding.
I'm not talking about the crap I've gone on about here,
but stuff that happened to me years ago. Stuff I've never
really talked about much with anyone until a few days ago
when I read someone else's diary entry. Being able to
relate is a good thing, and for the first time in years I
am actually thinking about what I went through. I found
myself telling the whole story to a couple friends of mine
just last night, and I've never really talked about it with
anyone. I've been exchanging emails with the person who's
going through something eerily familiar and I think it's a
good thing. Hopefully, through relating to her, I'll be
able to face up to thoughts I've been pushing away for so
long.

If you haven't already figured it out, I'm a fan of Fiona
Apple and the (very long) title of her last album "When
the Pawn.." seems to sum up a lot of what I've been
thinking about lately. Past, present, future. Here we go.


"When the Pawn Hits the Conflicts He Thinks Like a King
What He Knows Throws the Blows When He Goes to the Fight
and He'll Win the Whole Thing 'Fore He Enters the Ring
There's No Body to Batter When Your Mind Is Your Might So
When You Go Solo, You Hold Your Own Hand and Remember That
Depth Is the Greatest of Heights and if You Know Where You
Stand, Then You Know Where to Land and if You Fall It Won't
Matter, 'Cuz You'll Know That You're Right."
Fiona Apple.


I just might go into details about the stuff from the
past here some time soon.

~love ridden




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