TwistedAngel

Pieces of my life
2002-06-26 20:07:08 (UTC)

Is it possible...

...for God to cry with me? What i mean is last night i
started crying and asking God to help make the world right
and stuff. I was saying look at these people God, they
don't have any brains. Everything in this world is built on
money, everything revolves around money, please help us.
And all the while im crying. So i put my heard down on the
pillow and suddenly i can hear soft rain drops on my
bathroom vent. So i start going happy/crazy that God was
crying with me, that he understands. Then i felt sad
because i made God cry. So i stop crying and ask God to
stop too. And after a bit it does. I felt so weird because
that happened to me.
This may sound crazy to ppl but it happened and im so happy
now. I keep thinking: God must have something special for
me because he graced me with a sign. Who knows maybe it was
just raining, but it seemed like it was for me.

I've always hated myself because of the way i am. Always
letting people use me, letting their opinion influence
mine, worring about what they think about me, and all that
negative shit.
Well i've decided to change and hopefully i will. I want to
be a combo of things: (its a pretty weird combo cuz
somethings contradict each other, so let me explain)
bitch/rebel/"A" student/leader/nice person.
OK here goes... by bitch i mean if you start it im gonna
finish it and thats it. By rebel i mean do things that i
believe in adn not listen to what ppl say. "A" student
(duh)...i wanna get good grades. By leader i mean i want to lead my
class to success and never follow other ppl and be a sheep. By nice
person i mean be nice to everyone and thing at first, give
more but expect nothing, sacrifice my needs for others, and
help others when they need it. I also wanna lose weight, i
hope i can. Im a heavy girl and i wanna be average, not
skinny not fat just average weight.
**Do you ppl think i can do it??**

**Well if you do then send me feedback and we'll see who's
really nice out there...** lol....im kidding, u ppl dont
have to, but it would be nice...hehehe




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