Unspoken Truth

Thoughtz I've Neva Said
2002-06-24 06:43:56 (UTC)

i fucking dont kno

erinz been confusin' me lately. she told me sumthin' tonite
dat i would have never expected from her. i mean i cant
believe she would do dat. and i kno she regretz it. but i
just kinda feel sorry for her cuz she'z gonna memba dat her
whole life. oh well i cant really do anythin' cuz itz her
life. i whuz just lookin' out for her. but ya kno...anywayz
justen likez me now. which is kool i guess. but i only hope
i have feelingz for him. haha i'z just dunno right now. n e
wayz i'm leavin' for branson thurzday. dat outta be a
BLAST!! yippee i'm jumpin' for joy. no actually i just
wanna get it over wit. haha see how much i hate my family.
damn i'm a bitch. summaz goin' by too fast. jennz party is
cummin' up i cant wait to see finezz damien. and everyone
else i forgot. haha. anywayz i'm suppose to go to da moviez
wit josh and justen and erin dis week b4 i leave. but i
dunno if i wanna. i dont kno wut justen is expectin' and i
dont even kno if i have feelingz for him. oh well i can
handle dis. i dunno everythin'z happenin' so fast. itz
kinda like my life is passin' me by and i'm watchin' myself
live my life from another person or point of view. like i
have no control. and i'm just kinda along for da ride. i
dunno. i'm confused right now. and itz really late. and
i've been thinkin'...i thought i whuz over andrew but it
turnz out i aint. fuck i kno. god damn why cant i get over
him. i've been hittin' on a lot of different guyz to try
and make me stop thinkin' 'bout him. it dont work. showz
how pathetic i am. wut can i do. i guess u cant control ur
heart. euwww ima lez. (not really, figure of speech) ahh i
am so confused i just hate it. no onez a truly a virign cuz
LIFE SCREWZ EVERYONE. in dis case. i've been gettin' fucked
over and over again. iight im out.


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