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Blind My Eyes
2002-06-24 04:27:26 (UTC)

Still needing help!!!

I've come to a conclusion... I no longer want to be
with Michael... I was talking to 2 of my sisters
today and it's just.... I don't think that the pain
from before, of what he's done to me will ever go
away.... and I can't live with that for the rest of
my life. The screaming, the pushing, the
namecalling, and suicide threats, that according to
him, it was my fault if he killed himself and not
to forget it... All I could do was cry. I went
through the same shit with my father, my uncle, and
a second uncle.... all before I was even 10. I'm
not going to deal with someone who is very much
like a loose cannon... sure, he's being sweet
today, but tomorrow... watch out. He made me have a
very painful way of sex today... and i'm not too
happy about that one, so i don't know. Very few
people know that i have slept with him, and i wish
I never had... god... why can't i just leave for a
Long long time.... runaway for a while. that'd be
so much easier.. well, i'm out... later!!

*sunny days are gone for now, you've clouded up my
sky. u said i'd never have to live in the past,
i've never heard a bigger lie. you smack like my
uncle, your words sting like my dad's, and through
all of this, you never understand why i'm sad. i'm
sick of life, ready to end it all, and it's still
you i'm hurting from, just a different view of it
all. I wanted you to love me, i just wanted to be
loved, but if all love is, is hurt and tears, i'd
rather be by myself and just passby the hurtful
years.*




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