learning one step at one time
i can't be choking on my words. i must let them pervade
release what has been pent up inside. moving quicker. time
does not slow down. its moving and i am idle. i need a
push. i need to let it out again. cuz its coming around
again. how can i do that? what can i do? when it comes it
comes abrupt. and it is not easy. i do not find those
philosopies that are given to me. i must do all by myself.
why don't i get help? stubborn stubborn me. what i want and
what i need isn't where i always am.