Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2002-06-21 20:17:31 (UTC)

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Well im back from my little camping trip. It was fun,
diffrent for a change, very peacfull up there. There was
nothing really to do except talk to the old people that
were there, but it was entertainment. Actually the old
folks up there were quite pleasant to be around. They all
had a good sense of humor witch was nice. Well my fear of
the camping trip of it being heaven or hell turned out to
be true. It was heaven for the most part, the bugs and heat
turned out to be a living hell. But that was only in the
afternoon so it was really nice. Also the ground, sleeping
on that was hell. But we stayed up all night playing the
card game BullShit. That was fun. It was really nice for a
change. I had a good time, and i think im closer to Whitney
now than ever in my life. Ive known her since 1st grade and
just now were close to becoming friends, who knows maybe it
was just a fluke of good times. Not that i mind it. Well
why i was up there, somone brough up the subject of my
boyfriend, well it came out. I told the girls about him
moving and how destroyed i was at the thought, i received
sympathy from all of them but little advice. That night i
wrote a quick little note to myself of how i felt. My head
still ackes at the thought, but ive stoped myself from
busting out crying. I have that under control completelly
now thank the lord. It still kills me inside when i think
about it, so i try avoiding it much as possible. I dont
know how im going to react if Greg comes over tommorrow
after i work. Lord help me. Im going to need it.




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