This is the beloved air I breathe
2002-06-20 01:50:26 (UTC)

Trust in the Lord

Well, it's been quite a while since I have written. Since
the last time, I have ended my freshman year of college,
and I have spent about three weeks at home. Right now I am
in California. I am interning at a mission called the
House of Grace, and it's a home for Women who are
recovering from Drug and Alcohol addictions. The logic of
me comming to this place is beyond me. This was not my
idea. It was God's. Remember long ago when i wrote about
how God was calling me to serve him? Well, here I am. I
had no idea what I was getting into. I didn't even know
who was picking me up from the airport. I just purchased
the airline ticket, and followed where God had me go. It
was hard for me. I was excited and nervous all at the same
time. There are so many things at home that i want to be
doing. It makes me sad that I am not able to keep in as
much contact with all of my friends as I want to. I wish
that they would call me. I miss them all so much. They
are going to be doing so much this summer, and I am not
going to be involved with any of it. They are all going to
bond and get closer and I am not going to be able to

I like it here, but it's a little hectic. I feel like I am
in the way a lot, and that maybe it's going to be a lot of
work having me here. I mean, they say that it's going to
be such a big help having us(there is one other intern)
here, but we need to learn the ropes first. The first week
is always the most awkward, I suppose.
I have just kind of been following the staff around,
getting to know the people, and the procedures, and the
women. They are really cool. There is such a stigma when
people say "drug and alcohol recovery", and maybe a little
bit of the stereotype is true, but most of it is just a
lie. When you get to know the women they are just so
cool. they each have a personality,and humor and strengths
and talents and wisdom. The girls love the Lord so much,
and most of them are eager to grow in Him.

one of the hardest parts about being here is that I have
been totally relying on other people. People have been so
good to us. I can not tell if some of the people are just
being gracious, or if it is out of obligation. Mostly
people are happy to be able to help us out in any way they
can. One of the things that I have been learning is that I
need to be humble enough to be able to accept things from
other people sometimes. when I was at home I was totally
providing for a person who is living with us right now, but
now I am learning to accept help from others. It takes
humility to be able to accept "charity"

well, I'll write more another time.