PISSED

rude awakening
2002-06-19 00:32:00 (UTC)

I know that things will be ok..

I know that things will be ok if only I can just adopt my
sister and keep her from any more misery. I just have to
have a 3rd person present to keep her from going back on
her word and bull shit some more. I guess it was a good
thing she didnt die in that train wreck 2 days ago...just
barely missed it. But its a good thing because she better
not die before she signs her rights over. If all goes well
I dont have to see her, I get to call all the shots in my
life. And just as she has made my life hell these past 6
years her life will be in my hands in 6 years. AND I'LL BE
DAMNED IF I WILL LIFE A FUCKING FINGER TO SIGN ANYTHING.
I'LL BE DAMNED!!
It makes me marvel at how close SOOO CLOSE things could
have worked out the other way. And where would I be. UP
SHIT CREEK WITHOUT A PADDLE IS WHERE. I just saved my life
by sticking to A, he is my fucking savior. He is the only
reason that she is not a psychopath all the time, because
now she is trying to influence me so that he will think
well of her. So she's too busy kissing my ass to be psycho
all the time. I know that if she had won, my life wouldnt
have been worth living. I would have just ended my life or
something (if I didnt have a sister)because there is no
way I could go on living in a world or in a situation
that was never fair. In which I I never had a chance and
in which I could never win.
She keeps saying how she'll have another child who will
obey her and do what she says. All im thinking THANK GOD
for menopause. We dont need any more innocent lambs led to
the slaughter.At least not by this crazy cow.
And I just know that if she raises another kid, especially
if its a boy. He will blow her fucking brains out when he
is old enough.Fuck nevermind, if that happens I will spare
him the pain and just kill her and adopt that kid too.
Maybe nobody can prove that you are an unfit mother
because but I know that a bullet in your fucked up head
will stop you. This is part of the reason why I love EMINEM,the
stuff he writes about his mom. If there was a I WANT MOM DEAD club i
would join. But I havent heard of a collective mom bashing club
so...ill keep looking.
I just love this baby panda that my sister sent me. my mom
has been trying to get all 'touchy feely' after i was gone
and she gave my sister this panda bear with a little baby
panda attached to it. My sister ripped away the baby panda and
shipped it in a box and sent it to me as a gift.
freedom baby i hear you.
I thought that was fucking hillarious!!The baby panda is cute as
hell it makes me want to have a real baby panda bear. I wonder if
there is a way to do that without breaking any laws.:-/ a told me
they might have pandas at the zoos nearby or in the next state. i
was under the impression that they only had them in China.
A likes it too. We went to this chinese place 2 days ago
called 'Panda Garden'.:)
i'm gonna be alone for a month and a half , a is gonna go
travelling.




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