McCall

SWIM TEAM ..

CURRENT MUSIC : HOME-STAIND
CURRENT MOOD : I AM EMOTINALLY SCARED

okay swim practice sucked tonight .. for real my cool coach
is not here this week so I am stuck with coach reject !
for real you should not teach swim team if you are
incompatint (?) !! you see that freak can barely swim and i
can swim circles around him and he wants to critisize me !
w/e you know i am not his little fish he can keep in a
glass bowl like those little beta fish things .. I mean it
is like he thinks i am here to swim for him .. and then
after countless 100's he tells me to do a 200 he is a
freak and after all this I am not breathing right
accorrding to him .. okay two words MUNCH IT !!!!!!!!! I
don't have time for imbasills like him ! okay yeah i
finally got to talk to that Jeff guy .. humm well besides
the fact he is adorable .. :) he is awsome to talk
to ..well the little while we got to talk .. humm i
dunno .. ne ways so oh yeah BIG NEWS !!!!!!!! I am going
to the vans wroped tour !!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah !!!!!!! :)
okay i am way excited ! hehehehehehe .. hopefully i will
get to get back stage passes !! OMG :) ne ways humm i was
thinking today i am not really sure what kinda guy i
want .. i have narrowed it down .. i want one of two kinds
a guys .. 1. the kicker type .. you know tight jeans and
ropers.. ( think that are what those shoes called ) and
then there is 2. the Arron Lewis type guy .. who is punked
out .. tatoos .. baggy jeans those awsome shoes you know
the ones .. a few percings but not freaky.. but at the same
time will treat me right ,, you see i have not had to much
luck with guys lately .. i mean everyone says ohh you are
so cute .. and then goes and gets what they want from me ..
and leaves .. what kinda guy can do that to a gurl .. who
is so self absorbed to lie to someone and tell them they
love them and not mean it !!!I mean i will be so happy when
i finally find a guy that wikll treat me right ! you see i
am not a hoe and i guess to survive in todays world you
have to be .. well i am sorry .. i am not and i refuse to
change to fit anyones needs ! I am just McCall and that is
all i can be and if it is not enough get over it .. i don't
regret ANYTHING I DO OR SAY !!!!!! and i won't .. don't
try to make me feel bad .. about anything i do .. i did it
and if it was not good then i will pay the consoquinces ..
but none the less i still did it and i can't change it ..
I WISH I COULD FIND A GUY THAT THINKS THE WAY I DO .. LIKE
I SAID I WANT A GUY WHO WILL TEACH ME THINGS ! BUT I DON'T
WANT A GUY I CAN WALK ALL OVER .. I AM LOOKING FOR LOVE AND
I JUST CAN'T FIND IT IN ANY OF THESE LITTLE BOYS HERE IN
NOWHERE TEXAS !!!!!!!!
as soon as school is out for good i am going to NYU ! yes i
am getting out of this town .. i went to new york city this
year and i loved it .. all the people .. i mean it is soo
big . i want so much out of life .. but you know i can not
see it happening for me .. at this moment in time.. humm
well i hate to bitch about things so i am going to stop !
lates ~ McCall
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