Amy

*Alicia fucking ryan, my drunkness, and other random things*

I called alicia a whore a whole bunch of times today....
she just kind of giggles and says stoooop. Ugh, what a
bitch. I am in such a bad fucking mood today. I keep
imagining what they did and it seems like it so could not
have happen and it was just a dream or something, and then
i remember what a slut alicia is. I mean, its not like i
even like ryan, so i dont know why im so upset but i am, i
really am. Iv remembered somemore things about saturday
night. Ok, now heres the full story.... (the order is
probably not exactly accurate because i am having kind of a
hard time remembering saturday clearly) We (me alicia and
ryan) went to the beach and found a picnic table in the
woods.... thats when they started to drink.... then we went
to my house and they drank some more.... then a bit later
they got me to have one.... then two.... then three four
five or six.... but when we got back we lit off some
fireworks and ryan called his cousin justin because he
wanted him to bring some alchomahol, so he came and then
ryan went to go pick up these two girls, i dont know who...
one was named chisty and she was really nice and the other
one, i dont know what her name was but she kinda seemed
like a bitch but she didnt really say anything so i dunno.
Well they had to go because christys father didnt know she
was out (she was like 17, i think the other girl was
too.... and in fact ryan is almost 18 and his cousin is 18)
so ryan drove them home and then came back. I was told i
was drunk enough and couldnt have anymore sublimes so i
reached over and grabbed justins beer and took a sip....
which im still really embarrassed about, but he took it
away from me and in the process spilled it on alicias leg.
(later alicia told me that ryan 'said' he didnt believe she
spilled it on her leg and he was like rubbing her leg
to 'see' if she did) And we started talking about how
alicia says she was fat and she is not.... i kept saying to
them she is anorexic, which she is, but she wont admit it.
so then we took a ride to the marina, me and alicia in
ryans car and justin in his car. For some reason i got on
the subject of ryan being a wigger (which he is) and i kept
calling him one because he fits the stereo type so well....
his seat in his car way back.... big speakers.... ect. We
saw keith the scumbag there because he was working. So we
sat down at a table and by now i was pretty well hammered
so i was telling them how i was not drunk and they said
ok.... then walk in a strait line.... so i tried to but i
wobbled. and then i sat back down and alicia and ryan were
sitting together she was sitting in his lap or like right
next to him, i dont remember. So then after awhile we
leave and justin goes back to ryans house to sleep there
because hes drunk too (he lives like 30 minutes away) and
then i go in my house and go in my stepmoms room and then
my dad got mad at me because she found out i was drunk (he
didnt care, but she cares about me too much to not care, if
that makes sence) so then i get all mad that he was mad at
me so i sit in the chair on the deck in silence and alicia
and ryan are on the couch on the deck doing i dont know
much (i had just about passed out) and then i did pass out
but i hear ryan and alicia saying amy.... are you awake?
And i thought i said yea but alicia said i didnt say
anything so then i like fell back asleep. i suddenly woke
up and said im going to bed now.... so i got up and ryan
jumped up and got the door for me and i thought he was just
being nice. So the next day when me and alicia are still
at my dads house i asked her when she went to bed, and she
said a few hours after i did. I figured they just talked
for a long while, then i knew better, so i asked her what
really happened. And she said they just made out a
little. Then we went back to my house (my dad drove us....
right before we left ryan pulls in the driveway and my dad
asks if he wants to hang out downstairs or come with us, he
says come and he sits in back with alicia) and when we get
out of the car ryan says to alicia, you should give me a
call later (even though after that she realizes he never
gave her his #.... hmm, i wonder what that means....) so we
go to the beach and find a nice spot to talk. i get it out
of her that not only did she give him a bj but he fingered
her and they had real sex.... and i am so pissed off
because she lied to me and never had any intention of
telling me the truth. So i find out that the night before
when ryan opened the door it was because when i started
waking up he had his pants down and she was on her knees if
ya know what i mean. They did it while i was in the room!
whaaaaaaat thheeeeeee fuuuuuuuuck? I mean ewww. She knew him for i
dont know, a maximum of 4 hours? Im sorry, but to me thats not
right....