Blaine

broken wings
2002-06-12 03:39:28 (UTC)

life in general

ooh, the Broken Wings thing comes from a great song by
saves the day. Cars and Calories."when all tomorrow brings
is a set of broken wings it takes bites out of your insides
till you are just a hollow shell" just thought that i
should explain myself. I could go about how this applies to my life,
but I won't bore you with all of that.
anyways...
I was just watching this thing on tv that made me cry. It
was about a woman with cancer. It was so... I don't even
know the right word ( maybe grounding or humbling?) Well
when this lady was 34 and single she adopted a 3 month
premature baby from Peru. After she adopted her 2nd over-
seas child she found out that she had breast cancer. After
going through radiation and all that jazz she went into
remission. Wile in remission she got her 3rd daughter. Now
she is 44 and the cancer has returned, but all over her
body this time. She has writtena book about dying for her
children. Those three little kids wont have a faimly once
again. Yet, she manages to be happy.
I can't even manage that much. What kind of a person am I
when I can't just be thankful for having a life and a
faimly. I know that my ways of thinking won't change and
thats the hard part. I won't change, and live life to the
fullest. After I have realized what I should do I will
still fail to do so. I will get cought up in all of life
little trival things. Even though I won't tonight, I will
slip back into my old boring routine of selfishness.
How many people have forgotten everything theything they
learned after sept.11? I wish that I could act like a grown-
up and actually fallow through with all of my good
intentions. Well scratch that adults have forgoten. People
in general always seem to have the best intensions in the
world but never fallow through in their actions.
I would make the pact that I'm going to live everyday to
it's fullest and like it's my last, but i don't like to
make promies that i don't know that I can keep. I will
however make a conscious effort to try to have fun and
enjoy life. It least I'll try.




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