Ashon

Goddess....... what a year its been.......

I know its been like forever since I've written here... but the reason
why is because a whole crap load of shit has happened to me in the
past 9 months.
I broke off contact with a girl who had been haunting me for a year &
a half, that was hard. I still havent fully broken away from her, I
mean, recently the girl broke into my home & stole some of my things!
I've re-newed the friendship with my friend Tim, & became friends with
a boy I've known for about 4 years but never really knew, & I also
became friends with a guy I met in 8th grade (last year) but never
really talked to... the reason why is because he was at the time just
the brother of my friend Alaina & I rarly saw him (not to mention
we're both incredibly shy)... He also went to a different school. Now
them, as well as Diane (& a boy, Nick, who isn't a member of my little
group) are my best friends in the whole world.
I introduced Di to most of my guys Feburary 4th of this year, that was
also the day we broke off the contact with the other girl. 2 weeks
later (right after Valentines Day), she started going out with Tim. A
few weeks later, the 22nd, I broke up with my boyfriend whom I had
been dating since November.
I wish it had worked out... but he wasn't right for me... he made me
act different. Goddess... I'm sorry I had to break up with him like
that... that was the worst possable way to do it... we had talked that
night, (he had come over to my house) & he asked me if it was over, I
told him I didnt know... that I didnt know anything at the time about
what I wanted. "Please, give me some time to think" I said. He asked
me how long & I had asked for a week... I guess he took that as answer
enough though.
My friends Tim & Di tried to set me up with one of the other guys...
the one who's sister (Alaina) is also my friend. He likes me I
think... but I also like him. I'm not saying much in the way of names
in the off chance that one of them will find this.
Spring Break was wonderful... I wish to the gods that I could go back
there & live in that time forever...
My little group was the closest it had ever been before or after. I
was with Diane the entire week... I spent the weekend at her house, &
then Monday night we came to my dad's house. She stayed there all week
with me. The end of the break (the day before school started back), we
had grabbed our whole group & temporary kidnapped them & volunteered
them to help paint her family's house. Gods that was fun.
Now, in June, 2 days before I came up here to Ohio, Diane breaks up
with Tim. I have never felt such tension between the members of the
group in the entire year we've all been together, as I do
currently.... or did when I left that is. I do not know the situations
now. & I believe Di is hiding something from me....
Isis, has it been 9 months already?

Ashon