sweetkiten

my interesting life
2002-06-09 20:38:59 (UTC)

sadness

my father has a blood clot on his brain and i hope he dies
from it. i love my father to death and that was not
supposed to be an evil statement. his mother died from
alzhiemers disease and it was really rough going through it
with her. in fact i couldnt face her...i miss her a great
deal and i hope that she is in heaven and she is the way
she was before all of this. she died when i was in seventh
grade on december the sixth at around two in the morning.
the night before i didnt even get to say goodbye...i hadnt
seen her or spoken to her in about three months actually. i
was so young so scared, and i hate myself for not going to
see her but i couldnt. she wouldnt have noticed any way. i
cry now just thinking about it; she had promised me she
would take me bowling when her hip got better...we never
went bowling together. i dont think she ever knew how much
i loved her when she was here. and manya i just want you to
know that i love you so much and i always will...i hope you
feel the same way even though you are gone.




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