sweetkiten
my interesting life
read me
wow i havent written in this for a long while...ive been
going through a lot of shit. i cant stop crying everynight
and i really wanna end it all. it would kill my best friend
and thats really the only reason im still here. she keeps
me alive. i love her and i really dont deserve her. but ive
realized none of us get what we deserve...ya know? do the
rich bastards who dont really give a shit about life really
deserve to have so much power and influence? do the people
that know what life is really about deserve to struggle so
much? no. this world is so messed up. i love only a handful
of people to death out of all the people i know that is
pretty sad. i cry sometimes for other people and then i
realize that i really shouldnt cry. im so depressed and i
try to put on a happy face for my loved one and it doesnt
fucking work. do you know what its like to be anorexic...i
didnt even do it on purpose i just realized one day what i
was doing and then i had to stop i guess its amazing the
will power i have in me to do anything i want to. i dont
know why i dont try harder...i guess i dont have the fire
in me to get straight a's because i know i can do it why do
i have to proove myself to others?
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