Calliope Faye

Sleeping with eyes Open
2002-06-08 20:59:46 (UTC)

That Day

Dear Dairy, February 12th Tuesday 2002 4:30 PM,
I think up there I was a little bit on crack... Yeah...
Well *** is off the hook about the condom thing ( something
I regret I should use , although I may look into her
method ) She was at the doctors yesterday and he suggested
that Birth-control would Keep her acne down, so now that
girl has got everything!! x.x she doesn't have to worry
about any little ****** Jr. popping up anywhere and I
still have to keep my mind on that I could possibly have a
Charles II . Which I am going to prevent from happening for
a LONG while now if all possible! But there are always some
accidents. But I shouldn't have to worry about that right
now, I shouldn't be thinking of having sex either. And now
I can see that if we are at a party alone he is going to
want to. Hell I'm going to want to. I really do want to
tell my mom but... I don't want her to be disappointed in
me, not that she will fully understand because I know they
both will I just don't want them looking at Charles like he
is a bad guy, because, he is just like every other warm
blooded teenage boy! Now that he knows all give in easily
to him it will but hard for him to resist... ^.^ But I was
hurt a little by what D**** said today- ************* Well
that is what went threw my head and is sticking there like
hot glue. I feel like when she said that that the only
reason he told me he loved me because I was the only girl
he could get because he doesn't hang out with many of other
people, he doesn't get to school so its not like there are
other girls for him to pick and chose from you know? And I
can see where she is coming from, and I wonder if other
people think that too. Lately though I think I have been a
little bit to mouthy about my entire life... about me and
Charles.... loosing my v- I mean how many people know and
why- ok we have Charles – why because dammit he was there!
A****- Hello she is like my sister and I tell her everything
R******- Well I was expecting an intelligent answer out of
her sense she had lost her virginity a long time ago to
that jerk. I just hope I don't have the same fate as her.
M******- Well I confess everything to her... we have a
confession plan
R*****- damn I didn't mean to tell her but... She had told
me when **** and her got there groove on so I guess it
isn't so bad, I mean if I can keep a secret then so can
she, personally I don't think any of these people will tell
a soul.
So anyway 4 of my closest girl friends and my guy. I don't
think that is that bad, I could of told **** and D*****
G***** . I might tell them later but I don't trust D*****
and... G***** might think I am a **** because I am not
going out with Charles. But we... will be hopefully soon...
because if we don't I am going to be... Blab yeah you know
the felling... Gosh there is psycho music in the background
of my house. Well anyway this is all I am going to write
for now I am kinda tired so I might catch a nap before
strighting my hair and doing some studding for Geo. PLUS I
want to Finnish the ending to the Musical – "*********
****" just in time for V-day
Love me 4:47




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