still single

sick of all the sh*t
2001-06-16 06:01:58 (UTC)

Pussy Control

Well I still have been feeling down lately about
Denis...there is a new girl in the office who looks like a
supermodel and he is constantly talking to her now. I met a
guy at O'Connells,...a karaoke club, on wednesday...he was
so cute...in a band also an electrician and an awesome
body...younger of course...he asked me after we'd been
talking awhile, if I'd want to come back to his place and
watch a movie...at 1:am...yeah right!!!!!! I'm not barely
ready for a date let alone a one night stand. Nay Nay....
I am going to send gflowers to myself next week
probably...too make him jealous(yes I know it sounds
pathetic but I just want him to feel like he lost something
good....LOSER)It'll probably backfire but at least I'll
have pretty flowers to show for it..well still haven't
heard forn Stu or Steve(the band guy)..Not that I give a
shit at this point ....of course other guys I don't want,
are still calling...don't even want to answer my cellphone
nowadays. Anyway I gave the impression over the last couple
of days that I was dating again...Since then , Denis has
been acting distant and talking to that other girl all the
time and purposely staying away from me...at the end of the
day before I left I snuck in his office( after I put lotion
scented w/the perfume he likes of mine)and picked up his
cell phone so it would smell like me...well when I was
driving home(he let me leave a few minutes early)my
cellphone rang and it was Denis asking me why his phone
smeled like my perfume...told him I moved it to find my pen
that was on his desk(with the phone)told him I was
sorry...he says"It made me sneeze..."whatever...he probably
totally knew what I was doing....bad actress damn it.SHIT!!!
I'm such a fool...oh well...to err is human...
Another reason I picked up his cell to see who he called
earlier while I was in his office...I walkd out when he
sarted dialing though.He was talking soooo loud saying he
was gonna be by himself...well it ends up he was talking to
his friend Grae. So why would he say he was gonna be by
himself really loud for me to hear. Did he want me to think
that normally he has someone else? who knows....here I go
analyzing again...Too Many Scenarios!!!!!!!! Well I'm bored
of writing about Denis and you're probably sick of hearing
about it....oh yeah...was bored the other night and paid
$1.95 for a trial period on a porn site. Have watched it
for a few minutes a couple of times in the past week...not
getting any dick so masturbation will have to do the
trick...I miss dick....but I'm not gonna jump into anything
so fast again....Takin' it slow and I need to get me some
more Pussy Control.




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