bubbles333

oddness
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2002-06-06 23:34:02 (UTC)

damnit im so fucking odd

so much for all this wonderful summer
i do what i can to make people happy an they end up treatin
me like shit i cant stand this shit anymore
most of tha time i just wanna die
i wanna slit my wrists or hang myself
tha guy i like is bein a total asshole
i cant handle that seein as he was the nicest sweetest guy i
have ever met. . . .
it makes me so sad to think that he can be how he's bein. .
. . its not fair to me . . . why cant i ever find a nice guy
then keep him . . . .?
i wonder am i just really ugly or am i that and a bitch . .
. idono. . . i give up. . . . .i wanna go sleep now. sleep
is the only way to escape my problems if i'm asleep then i
doddnt think it just all melts away . . . into one big ball
of gum thats stuck to tha bottom of my shoe . . . so i think
i'll just go stick my shoe to the wall and forget everything
i know by sleeping some more. . . .

damnit i wonder . . . . if i died would anybody care?

i dont think so . . . ryan doesent give a shit about me anymore . . .
Squee likes to lie to me and tell me i'm beautiful . . . of course i
dont believe it . . . im not . . . im a plain person with a plain face
and nobody loves me . . . not even me . . . i hate myself . . . im a
loser . . . nobody should even want to be my friend . . . i really
dont know how people put up with me . . . im so fucking annoying . . .
. i really am a loser . . . i tag along with my friends and they dont
really realize that im there . . . i hate my entire damn life . . . i
want to die most of the time . . . god if i keep thinking i might
acctually think myself to death. . . ok well now that im done being
myself . . . i have to go put on an act that everyone else will like
so they might like me a little.


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