~spanish~eyes~

...............i ask..

...............i ask myself.........why.......why does life
have to be this way...is there some purpose for it... no
one really has answer. just a thought on it.i mean what
really is the point of life...sometimes i wonder.yo uknow
it is hard for me to say what i feel sometimes. i have been
hurt so much because of it in the past. it scares me
sometimes.cause when i really want to say something...i
stand speachless.i get scared of what the person will think
or if i will be hurt again.mostly i am scared of being hurt.
again.....it tears me up inside...and i know that the pain
that i have felt will always be in there somewhere to
remind me of it all.it comes back time to time. i dont tell
my friends though. kinda used to it already. i dont want
them to worry about me.even though i know they do.cause yo
uknow this pain will be there . i guess it's a part of me.
in a way. even though it's the past.as you can see so far
i am kinda confusing. but true. my thoughts are me.who i
may be.thoughts are something that you tend to
hide.....kinda like what i do.........