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My Perfect Waste of Time
2002-06-05 06:02:48 (UTC)

Incoherence

Don't always believe everything a person tells you. They
can be your best friend or a total stranger, but either way
they must think Im a goddamn idiot. I total ignorant fool
to give in to such lies. Well I guess they were told for my
greater good. Or for some reason thats what they think.
Honesty I guess, isnt for everyone. I like it myself.
Sometimes it hurts, but in the long run sometimes.. much
longer.. you appreciate it... what they did.. and can
appreciate them that much more for it. You even forget the
bull shit they were honest about.. just the fact that they
were a good enough person and had the courage to be honest.
When two people split up they go into four different
directions. When two people seperate they make that many
more connections. Reaching out of routine. Loooking for
more then just a little something. Looking to conquer the
world. Looking to find that special girl. Having trouble
operating these eyes. When I look through them everything
dies. But inside I know what they want to be. Yet so far
away. I dont even remeber the last thing I got to say...
and then they just went away. Gone for the summer. Life is
a bummer.. when you live at home. Lifes a drain. So much
strane on this fragile frame of mine. So little time to
embrace the moment. It can only last a moment. Its sad to
think about that... we should learn to look forward to the
next moment. That next second of lucidity where everything
inside of me seems so clear. I dont know how I can, when I
dont understand. I can go on forever.. but.. I will never
make a shread of sence so its best I make myself resist..
atleast for now...




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