RavenSoul

Raven's Land
2002-06-03 04:52:18 (UTC)

From infatuation to love...

Today was Tristan's graduation. Finally. I went to his
house in the morning and played video games in his room
until his mom came and told me that it was time to go. He
was already at the school. So I spent 2 hours sitting next
to his dad. His dad is really quite nice to me. I still
find him terrifying. I have no explanation. Then Tristan,
his mom, and I went to JC Penney to get him some clothes.
He was kinda freaking out because he went from a 30x32 to a
32x32. He's gained a little weight, but it was needed. He's
been skinny since I met him, and probably will be for a
long time. But I guess he's paranoid. So we picked out some
new black pants and a few shirts. Then we went back to his
house to get his dad and go out to dinner. I ate so much.
At least his mom will stop thinking I'm anorexic!
While we were in the car, his mom was talking about how
love is actually infatuation for a few years before it
turns into true love. I think she's right, for the most
part. But I think Tristan and I are a little bit different.
When we were together before, I think we loved each other,
but not in the way that we thought. I think our love was
purely friendship, and the love was an infatuation with
love...if that makes sense. But things are very different
now. We know each other much better, and we can pull
through the hard times. Hmm, but now I wonder if the
infatuation did actually last a few years. Even though we
broke up, we were both still thinking about each other
every day. So maybe that's when our love really blossomed...
Tristan is going to be homeless in about 3 weeks. If it
weren't for my mom, he could stay with me, but that's not
going to happen. He's going to be working almost every day
for 9 hours a day. It's going to be a lot harder than it is
now. He's going to have a lot more financial
responsibilities (its late, so I have an excuse it thats
spelt wrong). On the other hand, I'll have less. We're
going to have to deal with seeing each other a lot less.
I'll be in school and he'll be working. The good part of
the whole school thing though, is that I'll be in
Worcester. Only 1/2 an hour away from N. Brookfield. So
when he's almost getting out of work, I'll be almost in N.
Brookfield. . . assuming that's where he'll be able to find
an apartment.
Sooo...we got back to his house after dinner and watched
What's Eating Gilbert Grape... Mmm.. Johnny Depp...




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