funnygirl04

Many faces of me
2002-06-02 22:54:31 (UTC)

The Big day...or whatever

Well ok i am new at this diary stuff. But i thought well
this should be interesting so here it goes:

Last Night(june 1st 2002) was my older sisters wedding. she
married a really great guy in the army they have been going
out for 2 yrs. the only 2 problems i had with the whole
wedding was 1) she is only 18 and graduated like two days
earlier. 2) she is moving away to georgia because that is
where he is stationed... Now I have 3 step sisters 1 step
brother and a half brother(he lives with me) the others
dont. Well out of all of them i think gracie (eldest) is
the one i like the most. So now she is going to move away
and as i sat and watched them do the "I DO's" i didn't cry
suprisingly, but it didn't hit me until i actually gave her
a hug to congratulate her. I give off this demenor that i
dont really care what she is doing, and that i dont care
too much about her, when in reality she means the world to
me, and i guess the fact that she is going to move is
really hard. so anyone who has the brother or sister they
are extreamly close with will have to deal with the
goodbye. But i pushed all the sad emotions down and had a
good time. I then lost my patience towards the end of the
event when i had waited all night long just to take a
picture with her and eric(groom) but of course i wasn't
given the time of day. I finally got my picture about 2
hours later. I am so glade that this event is finally
over. Now the only hard thing left to do is say
our "goodbyes" when she leaves june 8th. I think that is
when all the tears will come.

Heres some info:
i am 16 yrs. old i live with my mom a half little brother
7, and a jackass step dad who unfortuanly came with some
baggage. 3 daughters Gracie 18, Jessica, 15, and Teresa 10,
and a son Paul Jr. 14. Now my step dad definatly
undertreats me, he totally ignores me, knows nothing about
me, and basically treats me like im just some kid who came
with my mom. They got married when i was 9...i hate him.
He will probably be in my diary a lot. I have many
problems that i usually stuff down inside and dont say
anything because i have those "unapprochable" parents who
u cant really talk to, cause they always seem grouchy and
whatnot. I am like two different people. At school i am
outgoing, funny, always happy. Then i come home where no
one notices if i clean the house i hang out in my room.
Very weird.

well more to come soon.
Funnygirl




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