Daughter of Zelophehad

Growth In God
2000-10-22 15:33:06 (UTC)

This week I realized I had a..

This week I realized I had a CHOICE. I can choose to be happy or I
can choose to be depressed. Divorce is not the end of the world. I
know why I feel so lonely now. I was alone growing up. My parents
were always working. I was critized by many of my peers so I never
got involved with their activities.

I still cry at various times. The pain runs deep.

I want to lose 20lbs before thanks giving. I lost 75lbs before so I
know I can do this. I must maintain my scheduled work out. And put a
lid on my eating habits....not an easy task. I completed my beginning
stages for today 25 mins of sweat and pain...urghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

my son is excelling in education I am quite pleased.

I have an interview coming up for a commercial lending officer, can I
meet the task at hand? I also need to do a physical challenge with

Can I manage my money so that me and my son will survive?

In my heart I know I need to lean on the lord for guidence and
support and just believe that all things work together for my good.
Yet, I pull away WHY? There is no greater thing in this world. Is
it because I never really had a relationship with my father - my
surpreme being as a child. Did this also affect my relationship with
my husband. Being so independent.........

I want to have a family and more children but I know I must take care
of myself and prepare myself and hopefully someone will see me!