*brokenangel*

a freak with a heart
2002-06-01 03:17:39 (UTC)

Dreams coming true,and sad times around the corner

everything is just so damn wrong! things for ME have been
great and ok and bad lol. well he ok part is that schools
almost out. yeah i know i should be happy but in a way im
not really and at the same time i am. i mean it will be
great to sleep in and not have to "go" to school. but the
last week is always so stressful, the teacher push all this
work on you to get done before finals...AHHHHHH. and at the
same time it's really sad cause i became so close to a lot
of ppl and im going away all summer and wont see them again
til next year. im gonna cry the last day of class lol but
be so happy at the same time. ok now for the great
news..........well as you all know i want to be an artist.
and i have been painting for 2 years. well the other day i
finally got my first real step to reaching my goal. my art
teacher selected one of my paintings to be put on display
at a real art exhibit in a real gallery. could i have asked
for more!!!!! it is the best feeling in the world to
receive something that you have wanted all your life. and i
have experienced it twice now. once finding love which i
have always prayed for and now getting a start on my life
long dream. lol i told so many ppl when i found out, but
the first person i told was of course jeremy. and it was so
hard not to tell anyone before i talked to him. umm his
reaction wasn't really what i expected, he didn't really
stay thrilled for me for very long. but anyway then i told
everyone else and well lets see........my mom cried for an
hour lol, my friends are thrilled for me and congratulated
me over and over, some are jealous of me, and my best
friend in the whole world is even coming up just for the
ceremony, for ME. and lol my parents called like every
family member and told them and most of them are coming to.
All of them know how hard i have worked for this and how
long i have had this dream. i feel so great right now,
everything seems to be going right; well almost everything!
there is still this thing with jeremy. he's been so
depressing for like a month now. it's horrible and sad. and
it's starting to get ot me. but i know he doesn' want to be
like this and im hoping he will change it soon. but
everything else is almost perfect, my friends and i are
great, my school work is almost over, my dream is starting
to take shape, everyone i know is so proud of me and happy
for me, i get to see my best friend in the whole world, the
only thing that could make it better at this point would be
o have jeremy here with me and at my first art exhibit yeah
that kinda upsets me that this memorable time for me,
this amazing thing that i didn' think would happen for 2 or
3 more years is happening and the person i love can't even
share it with me! oh well nothing is perfect i guess.

*brokenangel*


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