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sam

Sam and i had a fight ! I wanna make up, but i'm waiting for him.
I watched him all day today...waiting for him to say
something- but there was nothing. not even a whisper
passed his lips.
does he hate me so much that he tortures me like this
?
Or is it me that hates myself so much that i allow him.
I tell myself no... and then say things like, well if he
starts it then i can't be rude... and i secretly hope that he
will start something.. so that i cannot blame myself.
i will forget him, as i have done before- and this time he
will not be allowed back . i cannot keep up this relationship- it's
harder then anything else i've ever done. maybe it is time to end
it with sam.