SouthernBelle75

My sad life
2001-06-13 22:23:13 (UTC)

My first time

I was only 12 and a half the first time I had sex and the
guy was 19 year old Daniel. I lied him and told him I had
sex before and we had sex, I felt like my body was
splitting into. I begged and cryed for him to stop and he
did. I got dressed and went home to take a long hot bath. I
was just entering teenage hood and never realized how hard
it was gonna be. After the expierence, I did not have sex
for another 2 years. I had met a girl Cookie(her nickname),
she had set me up with the guy and sometimes I wonder if i
never gave into him that night would my life be any
different because of it?? I made a lot of mistakes in my
life and will probably make more. I always wanted the
perfect life, but I guess everyone does. I wanted to stay a
virgin untill the day I married. I was gonna have the
perfect husband and the perfect kids. YEAH RIGHT!! I must
have been dreaming 'cause not in a million years would that
happen. There was one guy I met, his name was Archie and he
was a mexican. The finest man I had ever seen and still yet
have met another that was just as fine as he was. But, my
past haunted me and because of my past I guess he could not
trust me. I have not forgotten him. His hair shined like
fine silk, his skin the color of honey, eyes that could
melt your heart and kisses sweeter than candy and built
like you would not belive. I tried looking for him for a
while, but no luck, I even tried asking Jeff Patterson
about him, but he doesn't seem him much. Archie always made
me feel soo different than any other guy I been with. It
did seem like it was all about sex with him. There were
nights we talked for hours and then walk me home. I never
knew what you would call our relationship. We all seen each
other at night and only talked on the phone. I think maybe
it was my looks and he was ashamed to admit he was with me.
At the time I did not care as long as he was mine. I still
dream of meeting with him again one day, but it is only a
dream.




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